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I was just thinking about how well I know myself & I thought I'd see how much I could write...but then i got tired...but there's so much more to be said...but here's what i got so far I guess....just some thoughts. Who knows if I'll finish it. My eyes are super tired though...goodnight.
A little about me I guess...I know what I want out of life...mostly. I have goals, hopes, dreams. All of which could change at any time for whatever reason...but for now I'm pursing what I want right now, & that's important to me. I'm not going to sit here and tell you how I'm soooo different from everyone else & that I'm sooo complicated & you'll never GET me...or understand me..although I do have those frustrating thoughts from time to time...but I've decided I'd rather give people the chance to prove me wrong or perhaps even enlighten me on certain things maybe I don't even know about myself. I get excited when someone does understand something I do or say...or why I did it. especially when I'm clueless until that point. Exploring the world outside of the walls we build around ourselves can be intimidating and scary, but I want to get past that & not build walls or cut myself off from you because I don't trust you. Shit...by letting people in so easily I could very well get hurt, but it's a chance I'm willing to take...I just want to meet more people...lately I've gotten this urge to expirence more people, places, learn more...expand my mind or just have some sort of change...something new I just want to live my life to the fullest. I'm sure I'll have many ups and downs, & could even give up at times but that never lasts. I get sick of being depressed & do something about it to change it. Whatever it takes to keep a happy streak more than just a phase...I'll do it. I just strive to be interesting & to break away from routine.
..and this is where i start to get super tired cuz it's 3am ha. thats all for now...
A little about me I guess...I know what I want out of life...mostly. I have goals, hopes, dreams. All of which could change at any time for whatever reason...but for now I'm pursing what I want right now, & that's important to me. I'm not going to sit here and tell you how I'm soooo different from everyone else & that I'm sooo complicated & you'll never GET me...or understand me..although I do have those frustrating thoughts from time to time...but I've decided I'd rather give people the chance to prove me wrong or perhaps even enlighten me on certain things maybe I don't even know about myself. I get excited when someone does understand something I do or say...or why I did it. especially when I'm clueless until that point. Exploring the world outside of the walls we build around ourselves can be intimidating and scary, but I want to get past that & not build walls or cut myself off from you because I don't trust you. Shit...by letting people in so easily I could very well get hurt, but it's a chance I'm willing to take...I just want to meet more people...lately I've gotten this urge to expirence more people, places, learn more...expand my mind or just have some sort of change...something new I just want to live my life to the fullest. I'm sure I'll have many ups and downs, & could even give up at times but that never lasts. I get sick of being depressed & do something about it to change it. Whatever it takes to keep a happy streak more than just a phase...I'll do it. I just strive to be interesting & to break away from routine.
..and this is where i start to get super tired cuz it's 3am ha. thats all for now...