Apr 20, 2006 15:08
I've been feeling really out of place and weird/awkward
lately. I hate using the word depression, but i think
thats it. I haven't been like this since about 3 months
ago. Whenever i get this way, i think way to much,
and convince myself to believe stupid shit, and to
be all quiet/shy/awkward, so i'm sorry to anyone
if i've been weird.
Lately i've been thinking about the summer, and
how great i hope it will be, but then i think about
how i have to go to my dads for a whole fucking
month and it gets me really..bummed. I know
its like 2 months or so away but still. I just think
about what had happened last summer, and
afraid all of that is gonna happen again this
summer. And going a whole month without
seeing everyone, espppp. tyler is gonna be a fucking
bitch. We were talking about it last night, and it
made me all sad and shit.lsdjf whatever i guess.
And to top it all off, i've been gaining weight,
and today some girl pretty much told me that
i was, so woohoo to it being noticable...so from
tonight for about a week, im not going to eat,
and im going to start exercise, sweet.