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i know i just posted like 30 minutes ago, but like.. somethings on my mind.
i dont know how i feel about him. i like him. a lot. a LOT a lot. A WHOLE LOT. and he always tells me that shit too. but i dont know. i want him so bad, it takes everything i have and then some to keep me from just giving in to him every time we even kiss because it always leads to something more. i want to just feel him like that.. just to know, but we already decided that sex.. is something we shouldn't be having right now so that we dont mess up our relationship. but we also decided that whatever happens, happens. and.. i'm scared. i'm scared that i will fall for him too hard and be all attached to him and shit if we have sex now. that's why i want to wait. but i'm not sure if waiting will make that go away. i dont want to be that girl he cant get away from. but like, i feel so strongly for him now and we havent even had sex yet.. i dont want to be just consumed by my feelings for him after we do.. and just not ever doing it period to avoid those feelings is not an option.. i just dont know how i'ma deal with them.
okay i guess i do know how i feel about him. just.. how do i keep from feeling too strongly? is it even possible to keep from liking somebody too much? you cant control your heart like that, can you?
i dont know how i feel about him. i like him. a lot. a LOT a lot. A WHOLE LOT. and he always tells me that shit too. but i dont know. i want him so bad, it takes everything i have and then some to keep me from just giving in to him every time we even kiss because it always leads to something more. i want to just feel him like that.. just to know, but we already decided that sex.. is something we shouldn't be having right now so that we dont mess up our relationship. but we also decided that whatever happens, happens. and.. i'm scared. i'm scared that i will fall for him too hard and be all attached to him and shit if we have sex now. that's why i want to wait. but i'm not sure if waiting will make that go away. i dont want to be that girl he cant get away from. but like, i feel so strongly for him now and we havent even had sex yet.. i dont want to be just consumed by my feelings for him after we do.. and just not ever doing it period to avoid those feelings is not an option.. i just dont know how i'ma deal with them.
okay i guess i do know how i feel about him. just.. how do i keep from feeling too strongly? is it even possible to keep from liking somebody too much? you cant control your heart like that, can you?