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okay well, nevermind. i think the only reason those feelings i had for him came back up were because i HAD to think about him. but at least if he does end up with my friend (which i dont really think will happen).. she wont try to piss me off about it on PURPOSE, like 9526349364 other females at my school would just because they know me and him were really close. so now i'm okay.
so i guess i'm just alone. maybe it's good that im not in love right now, because i dont need to be having sex. i think im going to be abstinent after eric. sex with him just pissed me off. how is that he had the equipment which was like the perfect size for me and he knew how to work it.. but couldnt make it last long?! alex says that my pussy was just that good. but nah shawdy.. 8 minutes?!! i didn't even know he was through. i turned around thinking okay we're switichin positions only to see that he had nutted already. HUH?! i was dumbfounded. i did not know what to say. alex said my facial expression probably said it all, because i cannot control my facial expressions for some reason. so he has to know i was very displeased with his inability to make it last. every time i've seen him at school since tuesday i have been trying to hide. i do not want to see him, because it's awkward. he called me this morning, i didn't call him back. i have a feeling that the reason he called is because he wants to fuck again and thinks that we should be cut friends. just because he called at 10. when does somebody who you're not even really talking to and is not your boyfriend call you that early in the morning unless they want some?
i mean, but maybe.. if he gets one of those condoms that are supposed to keep you from cumming so soon.. i'll let him hit again. cause other than that, the sex was hella good. but if not.. i'm not having sex until i find someone that's worth it. and for some reason, i doubt that will ever happen.
so i guess i'm just alone. maybe it's good that im not in love right now, because i dont need to be having sex. i think im going to be abstinent after eric. sex with him just pissed me off. how is that he had the equipment which was like the perfect size for me and he knew how to work it.. but couldnt make it last long?! alex says that my pussy was just that good. but nah shawdy.. 8 minutes?!! i didn't even know he was through. i turned around thinking okay we're switichin positions only to see that he had nutted already. HUH?! i was dumbfounded. i did not know what to say. alex said my facial expression probably said it all, because i cannot control my facial expressions for some reason. so he has to know i was very displeased with his inability to make it last. every time i've seen him at school since tuesday i have been trying to hide. i do not want to see him, because it's awkward. he called me this morning, i didn't call him back. i have a feeling that the reason he called is because he wants to fuck again and thinks that we should be cut friends. just because he called at 10. when does somebody who you're not even really talking to and is not your boyfriend call you that early in the morning unless they want some?
i mean, but maybe.. if he gets one of those condoms that are supposed to keep you from cumming so soon.. i'll let him hit again. cause other than that, the sex was hella good. but if not.. i'm not having sex until i find someone that's worth it. and for some reason, i doubt that will ever happen.