im not there
you know, its just so easy to pretend. i have been through a lot in my short 21 years alive. i always tell myself if i keep a positive attitude, ill learn to really love myself. for the most part, it works. but at home, nothing is ever all right.
my family puts the best front ever. my mom and sister hate my dad. and they have to live with him. my mom is unwell. i know deep down she is miserable that she is stuck with him. we find happiness in shopping and i also found happiness in san francisco. i havent been more happy in my life after being away. i miss my mom, sister and brother but it was something that i had to really appreciate everything and everyone. it just sucks things out had to turn out this way. my mom just got news that she has lung cancer and scalp cancer. i am not religious, but i find myself praying more and more. this news depresses me so much. its tough because she just got over breast cancer. im scared and helpless and i cant imagine how she must be feeling. i have never wanted to be at home more than i do right now. i feel so horrible for not being there.
my family puts the best front ever. my mom and sister hate my dad. and they have to live with him. my mom is unwell. i know deep down she is miserable that she is stuck with him. we find happiness in shopping and i also found happiness in san francisco. i havent been more happy in my life after being away. i miss my mom, sister and brother but it was something that i had to really appreciate everything and everyone. it just sucks things out had to turn out this way. my mom just got news that she has lung cancer and scalp cancer. i am not religious, but i find myself praying more and more. this news depresses me so much. its tough because she just got over breast cancer. im scared and helpless and i cant imagine how she must be feeling. i have never wanted to be at home more than i do right now. i feel so horrible for not being there.