my parents raised me to always be the best. for me, this included being competitive in school, being a good daughter, surrounding myself with the best people, and living with the best things. what they did not teach me was that there is a difference of being the best person you can be and getting the best things. i thought that being the best included having the best clothes or the best techonolgies. i am constantly chasing something, and will never fully be satisfied.
we are currently living in an asymptotic civilization. we are never going to hit that point where we are completely satisfied. we are taught to go to school, to get a degree, to go to more school, to get a job, to get a house with nice things, to get children, to send them off to do the same things, to get old, to having our children put us into a home, to eventually having an expensive funeral....does this define us? does this define our reason to live?
i look to my parents as a guideline. why does everyone assume that my life will be better than theirs? my parents make money. i was always given whatever i wanted. they worked hard. my father hates his job, but has been doing it for longer than i have been living. he is always so negative and mean. my mom started at the bottom and worked her way up to mirror what my father makes. she loves to work and to shop. but because of working and being married to a man who is mean and negative (and other outside forces, of course), she is constantly struggling with her health. i love my parents to death. but i see how i dont want to turn out to be.
what im doing now, i dont think i will look back and ever regret my youth life. i havent even completed half of my youth life and im all ready feeling a bit old as a lot of my peers are settling down to find another source to reach happiness. even if my life wont be as materialistically pleasing than my parents, i think i will do okay. i am currently loving most people around me, i am currently enjoying my days and nights, i am currently ...
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