This could be a good thing
I am currently on the floor of my friends apartment using my iPhone to blog. I am experiencing deep emotions and my feelings of being away from my family are changing. I love them so much and it makes me feel so horrible because I feel like I've been selfish. Being at home isnot good for my health. Apparently it's not good for my mother either. My mom called me to tell me she may have cancer again. When I heared that my heart dropped. What if we can't get over this again? What if she's not strong enough? I can't imagine how it would be like living without her. A part of me wants to just go home now and a part of me isdefinitely going to miss this lifestyle. I feel so horrible I'm up here while they are down there trying to help me go to school. It's tough too because I'm not as motivated as I was before. So I guess my next move is to drop out of school after this semester. I've always known I wanted a BA degree, but it's not like I can't put it on hold for a while. This could be a good opportunity.