hey lj,
i always seem to be a C plus piece of work in my college writing courses. im not doing it to impress anyone, but a lot of the times i put heart, soul, and sweat into my work. when i know i wrote a good piece, i think about. i overanalyze. i dream about it. i live in it. i write to apologize. i write to heal. I write for therapy. I write to get my creative energy out. it really helps because id rather have a blog instead pouring my life on one person (im guilty of that). for those of you who are interested, youre always welcome to read my journal (this one since 2005). I think everyone should have their own personal journal whether it be online or a hard copy journal (Moleskin claims every great writer had one). The internet works for me, oh and you dont waste any paper! i always wanted to be a writer, but I was not impressed with my work. I was very scared to put my stuff out and stopped writing - stopped my creative flow, stopped reading, stopped learning - that was called my last years of high school trying to fit in.then college happened and i was in love with someone, who didnt inspire me, but made me feel so small, like i really wasnt good at anything. that was the death of my creative self. years later, i feel my juices flowing again. and its great. i think i do better when im observing the crowd then trying to be part of the party. now a days, if i have something ive been thinking about, dreaming about, i want to get it out. well i NEED to get it out. and it comes out in an amazing form. i want to surround myself with creative people so i can bring my inspiration out in different ways other than blogs or music or what i wear. but other times, the people who have been your friends the longest are the ones who inspire you. i feel like im just rambling now. i need to write a book.