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i've been too lazy lately to write entries. i attempted to write a long entry yesterday but ofcourse i got a waol. it pissed me off so much that i didn't bother writing it again.
i've been kind of sad these past couple of days. i know some of the things that are making me upset but sometimes i just don't know why i'm so sad. weird right? i almost started crying in school today. i refuse to cry in front of people.
i haven't seen bryan in like 2 week. i miss him so much. i've talked to him on-line and stuff but it just kind of seems like he's not interested anymore. the other day he told me he wanted to hang out with me but he had work and i was out walking all day. why do i like him so much? i just don't understand it. i wish i could read minds so i could just know exactly how he feels about me. i think that out of all the guys that i have ever liked in my life, which is a lot, he is the one i've liked the most by far. i'm not in love with him but i do like hm A LOT and have intense feelings for him. i actually thought that when i started talking to him that i would just be friends with him and hook up with him for fun. no attachment. riiiight. look how that worked out.
school is really stressing me out. that is part of the reason i have been so upset. i missed just one day because i went to six flags for yearbook. i had 4 tests to make up! and a shit load of work. i know my report card is going to be terrible but part of me doesn't even care anymore. school is stupid.
i'm kind of sad about leaving for russia. i'm excited about going but i'm going to be gone for 7 weeks and that's just too damn long. i'm going to be homesick.
i don't know what to do..
i've been kind of sad these past couple of days. i know some of the things that are making me upset but sometimes i just don't know why i'm so sad. weird right? i almost started crying in school today. i refuse to cry in front of people.
i haven't seen bryan in like 2 week. i miss him so much. i've talked to him on-line and stuff but it just kind of seems like he's not interested anymore. the other day he told me he wanted to hang out with me but he had work and i was out walking all day. why do i like him so much? i just don't understand it. i wish i could read minds so i could just know exactly how he feels about me. i think that out of all the guys that i have ever liked in my life, which is a lot, he is the one i've liked the most by far. i'm not in love with him but i do like hm A LOT and have intense feelings for him. i actually thought that when i started talking to him that i would just be friends with him and hook up with him for fun. no attachment. riiiight. look how that worked out.
school is really stressing me out. that is part of the reason i have been so upset. i missed just one day because i went to six flags for yearbook. i had 4 tests to make up! and a shit load of work. i know my report card is going to be terrible but part of me doesn't even care anymore. school is stupid.
i'm kind of sad about leaving for russia. i'm excited about going but i'm going to be gone for 7 weeks and that's just too damn long. i'm going to be homesick.
i don't know what to do..