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If this is a journal, I am finally going to use it as such, meaning that the following is purely thought flowing from my mind onto the keyboard - unorganized, raw thought - I am not necessarily subscribing to the beliefs I am talking about, merely entertaining them.
For political philosophy, we were asked to write a paper that explains which ideological system we have. However, I hold the belief that I have the ability to have 100% control over my reality. This assumes that everyone I know is constructed by me, or apart of me, and that you all exist only within my reality. So I am going to write a paper creating my own ideology and fit everyone else into, not try and fit myself into someone else's ideology. Joe, my political philosophy teacher and I had a fucking intense conversation. It was seriously a mind fuck. I told him I felt like I was on drugs - I didn't know what was going on. By the way, I'm listening to Elvis. Anyway, we talked about reconciling the fact that you do have control over your own reality. And because we are having to reconcile this, we are aware of something that is acting as a blocker, like a bottomless pit we have to jump over, and we feel it's impossible. Joe explained it to me like your brain is this puddle on a table and all information you could ever hope to know is already there, and when you put your finger in it and drag it across the table, you leave a trail of puddle water. This trail knows nothing of the rest of the table, on the trail it followed. That is socialization. We also talked about that if this really is my reality, then I created everything in it, including all of you. And all of you have information to give me, that I already have, but am not aware of. That is possibly your purpose. But if you are all fictional characters, or just extentions that reflect myself, then I must be totally and utterly alone. Because you are all apart of me. We also talked about the possibility of deleting things out of your reality, in particular, deleting people out of your reality. We came to the conclusion (which we are not subscribing to, merely hypothesizing) that you cannot delete people out of your reality that you have already accepted as existing. This is because if something exists, it cannot just not exist. So how can you delete people out of your reality? We decided you could create a screening process where during that period you are undecided about whether they exist or not. If they exist, they always remain in your reality. If you decide they do not exist, you delete them. But this poses a rather boggling question: What is the difference between shooting someone out of my reality, or simply mentally deleting them, especially if they just exist in my reality? Another question is, what do I want my reality to look like? Maybe I created my body, and this world, and this universe, and maybe I have or will create other universes. I don't know guys, what the fuck? Someone suggested I just drop acid and all my questions will be answered.
For political philosophy, we were asked to write a paper that explains which ideological system we have. However, I hold the belief that I have the ability to have 100% control over my reality. This assumes that everyone I know is constructed by me, or apart of me, and that you all exist only within my reality. So I am going to write a paper creating my own ideology and fit everyone else into, not try and fit myself into someone else's ideology. Joe, my political philosophy teacher and I had a fucking intense conversation. It was seriously a mind fuck. I told him I felt like I was on drugs - I didn't know what was going on. By the way, I'm listening to Elvis. Anyway, we talked about reconciling the fact that you do have control over your own reality. And because we are having to reconcile this, we are aware of something that is acting as a blocker, like a bottomless pit we have to jump over, and we feel it's impossible. Joe explained it to me like your brain is this puddle on a table and all information you could ever hope to know is already there, and when you put your finger in it and drag it across the table, you leave a trail of puddle water. This trail knows nothing of the rest of the table, on the trail it followed. That is socialization. We also talked about that if this really is my reality, then I created everything in it, including all of you. And all of you have information to give me, that I already have, but am not aware of. That is possibly your purpose. But if you are all fictional characters, or just extentions that reflect myself, then I must be totally and utterly alone. Because you are all apart of me. We also talked about the possibility of deleting things out of your reality, in particular, deleting people out of your reality. We came to the conclusion (which we are not subscribing to, merely hypothesizing) that you cannot delete people out of your reality that you have already accepted as existing. This is because if something exists, it cannot just not exist. So how can you delete people out of your reality? We decided you could create a screening process where during that period you are undecided about whether they exist or not. If they exist, they always remain in your reality. If you decide they do not exist, you delete them. But this poses a rather boggling question: What is the difference between shooting someone out of my reality, or simply mentally deleting them, especially if they just exist in my reality? Another question is, what do I want my reality to look like? Maybe I created my body, and this world, and this universe, and maybe I have or will create other universes. I don't know guys, what the fuck? Someone suggested I just drop acid and all my questions will be answered.