Love Burns
I'm one of those guys who doesn't like to bitch at anything, i like to deal with it and live. that's the reason i didnt want a journal in the first place, cause i knew no matter how good of a day i was ganna have, this stupid thing is ganna make me want to bitch at somthing, so here goes..
ask yourself this one question: what am i grateful for?
i havn't been myself lately... usually i get super good grades, i'm always studying, never let anything cloud my judgement. over the years i noticed that life's been changing...my family is slowly drifting apart, everyone's getting old, all my old friends have gone their seperate ways, my old pets slowly dieing...or maybe this was the path that my family always went through, and i'm just maturing enough to realize that now. i've realized that i have to take care of myself now, that i wont always have my parents there to solve every little problem i have, i wont have my brother there to help keep bad people off my ass..and that just maybe i'm not as great as i think i am. i'm really not a conceited person, but i've always had this one thought stuck in my head, that i could never get hurt, or beaten. especially when it came to my saxophone, back in middle school, man was i badass, i would not let ANYONE be better than me, but now that i'm in high school, it's a whole new league. there are so many good people, i'm not even competition to them anymore. my grades have been slipping as well, i try as hard as i can, but i just cant concentrate as well as i used to.
this is all a phase, i know it. i'm just going to practice harder, work to be stronger... but the worst part about all of this is the fact that i cant enjoy what i have.. what am i grateful for? everything i have... a dad who hasnt abandoned me, a place i can call home, someone i can call babe. i really shouldn't complain, i read other peoples journals...and there are some people who have it so much worse! some just lost the ones they loved, or have been forced to not be with those that they wish to be with =/
all i have to do is remember i still have a family, and no matter how little i get to see my girlfriend, she loves me =).
now that i got all that off my back, life is good!! time to look at my favorite brain teaser!
http://www.ebaumsworld.com/opticalass.html
now i'm feeling alittle better 8)
http://www.ebaumsworld.com/dayafterparty.html
sorry for blabbing so much today.