HAPPY 1
So, As I mentioned in my last entry I want to make some changes, I want to be happy and to not just continue in the way I've been going. Nick and I fought about something really stupid last night. I feel like everything that happens between us is because I ALWAYS emotionally overreact to everything. If he isn't in the mood, I act as if he is throwing me out in the cold. I get so emotional for no reason. I hate it. I don't know if I need to talk to someone or something, but I am so tired of being so emotional all. the. time.
SO, HAPPY POSTS ARE HERE.
I started making a list of things I need to do/goals/things to make me happy.
BE HAPPY LIST
1. Clean my room
2. Clean my closet, too.
3. WRITE IN A JOURNAL. Not this journal, but honest to goodness hardback journal - let it all out, as often as I can.
4. Buy a journal to accomplish #3 :P
5. Write more in general. Poetry, etc.
6. Make a list of everything that is amazing about me. It's not vain, its the truth.
7. Review list as necessary.
8. Find a night every week or every 2 weeks where I can do something creative. I love doing crafts, and I haven't done anything in months and months. Maybe ask a friend to do it with me!
9. Make an honest effort to connect with old friends and make new friends. Be friendly and outgoing. STOP WITH THE SHY BUSINESS.
10. Do more things I love! Bake, write, craft, blog (I want to start a new one). Don't just sit online and off_wut, but do things that make me ~really~ happy!
11. STOP MAKING NICK MY WHOLE LIFE. I CAN'T PLAN MY LIFE AROUND HIM AND IF WE ARE HANGING OUT. I CAN'T SIT AROUND HIS HOUSE BEING BORED. THERE ARE BETTER THINGS TO BE DOING!
12. Get my god damn laptop so if I am in the situation of being stuck at Nicks, I'll at least be able to be online/do school work.
13. That reminds me, CATCH UP ON MY SCHOOL WORK. I'm like 6 assignments behind in one class (He accepts late work). THERE IS NO STRESS WHEN YOU ARE ALL CAUGHT UP. STOP MAKING EXCUSES.
14. Find a way to fit working out into my life. Even if I'm just doing crunches in my bedroom again, they make me feel GOOD. They make me feel SEXY. I need to feel this way, I need to be in touch with my ~physical side~
15. Make a mix of songs that make me feel good/happy/like dancing/like singing. Dance and sing and be a dork to these on a regular basis. NO MATTER HOW CHEESY.
16. EMBRACE MYSELF FOR WHO I AM. I have been so randomly caught up being insecure lately, I need to just accept I am not perfect, I am pretty hot and I may not be perfect looking but NO ONE IS.
Thats all I can think about right now. Sorry for the caps and the kind of stream-of-consciousness it was, but writing it all down (twice, actually) makes it feel more real - makes it feel accomplishable!
So this was just post 1. Expect to see lots more creativity, I'll post anything I make or bake or if I clean my room I'll take pictures. I'm going to really get going with this!
ETA: Oh and you guys, do you have a mantra? Do you tell yourself these kinds of things, have you done anything like this?! TELL ME !
