Get ready motherfucker cause i'm on the scene
*Warning... huge rant about how shit Sundays are*
Oh My God i fucking HATE sundays and i wish it was monday. Can you believe that? I would actually rather go to work than be sitting here right now. FUCKING HATE BEING BORED GRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!
I am actually pissing myself off so much right now. i HATE HATE HATE HATE staying in. and i have to stay in and i dont want toooooo!!!!!
Work has been cool like the past 2 weeks. Had training in Caerphilly last week and me and Jane were like omg dont put us with a hot guy. And Jane went STRAIGHT to the hottest guy there hahaha, i was fucking pissing myself. But it all backfired on me =[
I had this girl called kayleigh who was rather shit and basically didnt give a fuck. i used the phones for the first time hahaha...was quite scary but went really well. Paul and Claire listened in and said they were really impressed anyway so booooooya!
Hahaha and then on Tuesday Jane was like 'i dont want to stay with James, can i move please?' SO JUST because she said that Claire put her with Steff who I WAS supposed to be with and stuck me with James. I was like LUSSSH! Hahah he was WAAAAAY too hot for me to be focusing on calls.
But very very quiet so it was a fucking boring daaaaaaay =[
Then on our last day there, they put me wth Aled who was also very hot but soooo much nicer and very very talkative so i liked him and i was happy with him. He was kinda like jokey about everything so it was cool and he marked me for one call and i had full marks haha so yeah i rock =]
BUT he had the dentisr at half one =[ So i got put with a random girl but it was only for like an hour and then we finished =]
On Thursday we had like our first calls put through to Bridgend. Haha i forgot my smart card =[ So Tammy took me back home to get it so we had an extra hour out of the office lol. I actaully really like Tammy now. Shows you how wrong first impressions are lol. I heard her stupid comments and thought omg shes an idiot. But shes actually really funny and a nice girl and the groups are like all splitting into their friends now. Its like me, Jane, Tammy, Shaun and Tracey lol. Haha its quite cute =]
OH MY GOD i seriously hate Simon so much. He is such a fucking idiot!!!!! Why cant he just admit that he spent all his money on stupid things like DVD's and random trips to Ponty even though he wasnt going to Uni....he was just going to spend the day up Chris' and play x-box For the past SIX months i have said 'if your not gonna finish the year in Uni, PLEASE start looking for a job?'
All i've had was 'all you do is nag, your such a bitch!' And nobody actually saw that i was nagging for a REASON!!!! To fucking help him! And now he's like 'If i dont find a job tomorrow, i'm fucked. I've fucked up the whole of my life;'
Did i NOT try to tell you that six months ago? Did you NOT ignore every fucking sentence i put together assuming a job would just fall into your lap?
And now its like 'i have no money for petrol so basically i cant see you for 2 weeks.' And its like great now eveyrone has to suffer just because you couldnt be assed to think ahead and look....instead of just switching on your computer and playing WOW.
And THEN he was like 'NOBODY helps me chip in any money for petrol' and its like 'you dont ask' and then he said 'i hate asking, i feel like a cunt'
WHAT THE FUCK? So you expect people to just mind read and give you some money. If you dont ask....you dont get!!!!
I said i will be more than happy to give you money when i get paid but i dont get money till the 29th and until then i have £30 to last me. 'Why dont you fucking give me some money?'
'Why dont you fucking ask your friends who are out just as much, if not more than me and get money given to them weekly? You KNOW i have £30 to last me 2 weeks and you use that against me to make me feel like a twat for not being abot to help you out.
I mean my mum has given him about £50 for petrol money over the past few months. MY mum like. He doesnt mind taking money off me or my mum but when it comes to asking his friends or his mum.....oh no. Thats going against the rules like!
Seriously why am i with him? All we do is argue because i say the common sense thing like get a job OR get more hours OR sign on if you desperatley want money. And hes like all you do is nag and i dont mind not having any money because then i cant spend it. So baically Simons gonna stay in for the rest of eternity cause he doesnt mind not having any money. And hes so ignorant. And basically he just bugs the fuck out of me. I really just want to SHAKE him awake and make him realize you HAVE to work and LOOK. Nothing comes easy.
Oh my god this is just getting fucking ridiclous. He now thinks that everyday when i'm at my house and hes not here that i have people over and have sex with them. Its like what the fuck? My dad is here practically everyday!! And who the fuck would i have over my house? Like Dai from next door? This is just completley UNREAL!
I am not the person he thinks i am. And one person has told me hes cheating on me with Charlotte which i found fucking hillarious but i told him about it nd who said it and everything and he was just like wtf?
I hate people, i hate thoughts, i hate paranoia, i hate doubts.
And i cant believe hes been hiding it from me all that time that he thought i was seriously having people over my house while he was out! I hate dishonesty. Just ask me. I'll be upfront about it.
Oh my god i hate boys. I i i i i dont know what to do anymore. Dougie Poynter.,...now is your chance to come whisk me away please? =]
Tomorrow is worrrrrrk!! I cant wait to get out of this house and actually do something!
This weekend was okay. Friday was fun =D Me and Jane got fucked and watched BB. Haha new boyzzzz! Not yummy though=] We were supposed to go out with Fletch but BB and Tea was too tempting hahah.
Saturday i was fucked all day....didnt want to go out at all. But i did and it was quite boring cause i was super tired. And today while ive been in like all day and actually want to go out i cant hahaha!
Now my dads like 'i cant sit here while you type on there. i'm going upstairs' and basically is pissed off at me. i cant do ANYTHING right today. I spoke to my mum for literally 2 minutes on the phone. 'I'm gonna go because you obviously dont want to speak to me.' NO im just having a really really really bad night and sorry if i'm not Mrs fucking Chatty :|:|:|:|:|:|
OH MY GOD i hate everything right now. Please make tomorrow come quickly so i just dont have to sit here in this frame of mind.
I want to be happpppppy!!! I want to go out and get fucked and laugh! I dont want to worry about money and other peoples money. Its not my responsibility. If you've fucked up....you've fucked up. Haha what i find hillarious is though...he said 'fuck this, i;m gonna get my own house. i hate driving round'
I was like are you aware that a house is going to cost a hell of a lot more than a car?
'Yeah but then i dont have to drive'
Yeah but THEN your more fucked than you are now.
Like where is peoples sense?!?
I hope its not just me being weird here but somethings not quite right here. Meh meh meh i fucking hate moaning.
I'm only complaining to keep myself busy sweetie =]