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So. I'm a cool person and all right. No that ways a lie. Oh well. I'm feeling kinda random and ugly and stuff. I've realised that at the beginning of Gr.9 I was the I try to hard girl. How stupid is that shit? I've got lotsa friends, I'm sure, it's just I don't know. I have absolutely zippo in common with them. They're all doped up while listening to rapdaddy smith, or they're high on the glow of the stick and thier cars while listenening to computer generations. I have no problem listening to rap or beats, it's just not what I do all the time though. I don't know. Dumb people are just dumb.
Alicia and Alessandra were talking shit about Zeeda in English. How stupid can they be. Like any fucking louder?!? Alicia talks way to much shit. I'd hate to be her, she has no real friends, they all claim to hate her behind her back. It's bullshit. I told Zeeda they were doing it, not cause I wanna start something just because she's so nice to everyone and they all get jealous and shit talk. I'm ready for Monday if Alicia gets all fuck twit with me though, she bitched at me once, it's not happening again. Ever. I don't care if all the cool kids feel the need to point and talk about me. It's their buisness. Alessandra's dumb for doing it though. I mean, what has Zeeda ever done to you? If I was Alessandra i'd be pissed at Alicia, I mean you were all fucked up about Martino and she was flirting with him 24/7. They all were. It's too bad, cause I thought you were cool, you live you learn right. Alicia claims she was doing it because Zeeda thinks all the guys want her, news flash Alicia...you do the fucking same thing sweet heart. What ever, it's not my life.
Stephanie's got this thing going with this gr.11 guy. I think it's cute. She's like best friends with Vanessa and Felicia and shit. I know they don't like me, so I avoid them. Anyways, I asked Steph what the guys name was. She wouldn't tell me. I asked her if Vanessa and Felicia know, she said yes. It wouldn't hurt so much if I didn't think we were close, and if I didn't trust you as much as I do. Again. Whatever.
So. I still haven't talked to this guy...I'm so pathetic. I just think he's rad. He's not even the hottest guy out there...there's just something about him. I don't go for the hot guys anyways, it's way to superficial for my style. I'm a personality person, although I do notice looks. But back to him. I figured out his name. I'm not going to write it here cause I'm paranoid and girly like that. I wrote him a letter...I told you I'm pathetic. I call him Rockstar....I know, I'm ghetto. But dude...he's awesome. Like, he's the guy who'll make you laugh and stuff, he's smart too. Likes poetry, which is cool, cause I'm just naturally good at poetry for some fucked up reason. I can't stop thinking about him. Which is fucked up, cause I don't know him. I try not to look at him and stuff, cause that's weird. I try, it doesn't always work, but I try.
I'm failing everything in school. Geography, English, Art ( don't even ask)...okay so not everything but close. I'm failing half of my 6 classes. That's half of the stuff I'm stupid at. FUCK. Whatever.
I had this weird kind of cool kind of whatever talk with my french teacher in the middle of class. It started off with me saying I'm dumb, then he walked away. Then I told him I hate french, and we talked about how our faces are falling off. He told me not to be so down on myself cause I'm smart, and I'm beautiful and stuff. I had a comment for everything he said and the class laughed at us. It was cool I guess.
I made a few new friends too. Mainly Charlotte and Marina. Who rock my socks.
Anyways a picture then a good bye.
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I think I look cutest when I'm.....Sideways. Nah that was a lie...I'm kinda ugly always : D