never be the same
i almost feel as if i should dessert this journal for a while
pick up where i left off on my old one
but i do want to mention how life can throw you for loops
when you are not expecting it
or maybe expecting it all along
it's quite obvious that my life has been some kind of rollercoaster in the past year.
never a lull. never a dull moment.
from last summer, so anxious and excited to start a new life in kalamazoo.
leaving waterford. waiting in line, jumping on the cart, no seatbelt.
trying to make a new home at western.
never finding the ability to do so.
a mess with one boy, with others picking me back up.
spirals. spirals. spirals. months on end.
still not happy in kalamazoo.
losing sight of winter, spring in sight, the coil starts straightening. smooth ride.
start working.
find happiness in dating and friendships.
knowing that i was moving back home.
i just keep climbing that hill. ticking on the track.
everything is exceptional.
and out of nowhere, i plummet down.
but i never strapped myself in, never protected myself
(what just happened?)
and just as im thrown out of the cart,
im caught by a saftey net of friends.
and thats where i am now.
i can't show how much i appreciate my friends.
amy, karie, derek, steve, everyone else who has offered their support.
it's amazing how you can lift one finger, and incredible friends will jump in for you.
pull you back up.
make things okay.
because im okay.
pick up where i left off on my old one
but i do want to mention how life can throw you for loops
when you are not expecting it
or maybe expecting it all along
it's quite obvious that my life has been some kind of rollercoaster in the past year.
never a lull. never a dull moment.
from last summer, so anxious and excited to start a new life in kalamazoo.
leaving waterford. waiting in line, jumping on the cart, no seatbelt.
trying to make a new home at western.
never finding the ability to do so.
a mess with one boy, with others picking me back up.
spirals. spirals. spirals. months on end.
still not happy in kalamazoo.
losing sight of winter, spring in sight, the coil starts straightening. smooth ride.
start working.
find happiness in dating and friendships.
knowing that i was moving back home.
i just keep climbing that hill. ticking on the track.
everything is exceptional.
and out of nowhere, i plummet down.
but i never strapped myself in, never protected myself
(what just happened?)
and just as im thrown out of the cart,
im caught by a saftey net of friends.
and thats where i am now.
i can't show how much i appreciate my friends.
amy, karie, derek, steve, everyone else who has offered their support.
it's amazing how you can lift one finger, and incredible friends will jump in for you.
pull you back up.
make things okay.
because im okay.