lets make these hearts shake faster..
It's funny how things from your past can make a memory that where you can intend to go back and relive it. I stepped that boundry today and I turned back before any more damage could be done.
That place was left behind and forgotten.
For a reason.
Too much flows back and sometimes, I wish why did I go so far then? I knew no matter what it'll never make it in the end but I did it anyway. I had a great time in the end, and thats the right words to use. The end. The end of something that meant alot to me, a friendship that thought would live on by the promise but it never would. I knew that, but still stood by it. I think that no matter what, it's better off this way. I'm happy without this person in my life, and the person feels the exact same about me. Something thats always stood out, is the guitar. I really need to get rid of it because sometimes, I sit on my bed or on my floor, and images of this person flow back and hit so hard.
I learned this time, 2 years ago that you can love somebody so much and lose them because of that love. That explains why sometimes I fear being in love again, and this time it feels totally different and stronger. This person and I went through so much shit, thought I was pregnant with them and all. One of the most scariest feelings in the world, at my age then and now.
But it's true, I live by this quote and mean it: Your greatest accomplishment is your greatest fear. I accomplished so much with this person, and they helped mold me to the person I am today. I'm stronger because of him. I'm more confident in myself because of him. I feel more power in myself because of him. Overall, I feel like myself and that is something that nobody will ever change about me. No matter what, I am me. I am who I am for the reasons that we both know.
As hard as it is to believe, the word hate is very vile. The word itself is stronger as the insult more then the verb its said as. I can't hate them, I can just dislike them because of what I went through because of them. Then again, I wouldn't be in love with Chris or have met Chris and found the person I am SUPPOSE to be with in the end and that is why I fight so much for what we have and to work things out at the end of the day when fighting. It's meant to be. How my life has ended up, is meant to be this way. For that, I am happy. Satisified. Comfortable. Me.
oh ps: almost seven months, and for that i am looking forward to this week.
That place was left behind and forgotten.
For a reason.
Too much flows back and sometimes, I wish why did I go so far then? I knew no matter what it'll never make it in the end but I did it anyway. I had a great time in the end, and thats the right words to use. The end. The end of something that meant alot to me, a friendship that thought would live on by the promise but it never would. I knew that, but still stood by it. I think that no matter what, it's better off this way. I'm happy without this person in my life, and the person feels the exact same about me. Something thats always stood out, is the guitar. I really need to get rid of it because sometimes, I sit on my bed or on my floor, and images of this person flow back and hit so hard.
I learned this time, 2 years ago that you can love somebody so much and lose them because of that love. That explains why sometimes I fear being in love again, and this time it feels totally different and stronger. This person and I went through so much shit, thought I was pregnant with them and all. One of the most scariest feelings in the world, at my age then and now.
But it's true, I live by this quote and mean it: Your greatest accomplishment is your greatest fear. I accomplished so much with this person, and they helped mold me to the person I am today. I'm stronger because of him. I'm more confident in myself because of him. I feel more power in myself because of him. Overall, I feel like myself and that is something that nobody will ever change about me. No matter what, I am me. I am who I am for the reasons that we both know.
As hard as it is to believe, the word hate is very vile. The word itself is stronger as the insult more then the verb its said as. I can't hate them, I can just dislike them because of what I went through because of them. Then again, I wouldn't be in love with Chris or have met Chris and found the person I am SUPPOSE to be with in the end and that is why I fight so much for what we have and to work things out at the end of the day when fighting. It's meant to be. How my life has ended up, is meant to be this way. For that, I am happy. Satisified. Comfortable. Me.
oh ps: almost seven months, and for that i am looking forward to this week.