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New Amy Lee header! Tis really boring, but I have no inspiration today!
Grrr oh my hell Matt really won't leave me alone. He still thinks that I wanted it. The fact that I said no, actually, screamed no means nothing. I'm just thanksful I pushed him off before he got any further. I still feel voilated though, because he still touched me & did it to me once when I didn't want it. I hate him. He is the reason I'm scared of guys, and the only two guys I do trust are Dan & Cameron, and thats only because they are gay & my best friends. I only went out with Matt to prove to myself I wasn't attracted to women, because I was scared of being gay or bi. But I've finally accepted it now, and I wish i'd never met him. But i'm still scared. I wouldn't do anything with my ex Christina because Matt made me feel like damaged goods and I was terrified she would think the same.
I hate him so bloody much.
Grrr oh my hell Matt really won't leave me alone. He still thinks that I wanted it. The fact that I said no, actually, screamed no means nothing. I'm just thanksful I pushed him off before he got any further. I still feel voilated though, because he still touched me & did it to me once when I didn't want it. I hate him. He is the reason I'm scared of guys, and the only two guys I do trust are Dan & Cameron, and thats only because they are gay & my best friends. I only went out with Matt to prove to myself I wasn't attracted to women, because I was scared of being gay or bi. But I've finally accepted it now, and I wish i'd never met him. But i'm still scared. I wouldn't do anything with my ex Christina because Matt made me feel like damaged goods and I was terrified she would think the same.
I hate him so bloody much.