it's game shows, cheap liqour, blunts, and bumper stickers with rainbows

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spring forward, fall back. i think it just hit me, but it hasn't really hit me at all yet. it's november, i got all "do you remember when.." in the car today. i am always in the car. my car is where i seemingly live my life, my car is a mess, my life is messy just like my car. i walked out of my last class yesterday and who was on the patio but my beautiful boy with a dozen roses. that kind of thing doesn't happen to the kind of girl that is me. i am in the most genuine love. i don't have time to enjoy this all though, i am moving from one thing to two things to three things four all these things. today marcus pokes me on the shoulder and he says, "kristen, what's on your mind?" and i say to him, "gah! so many things. i am so overwhelmed right now." and marcus says to me with his little carribean noises, he says "you know there are two things that always help me. one, faith in the lord. you can always pray and know that it's out of your hands. you know? faith. faith is key. and two, adderall. now that's some good shit." e and i went to the park today and decided we'd plan a road trip because if we could do anything at all we'd get away from all the things that are keeping us from going right now. so canada, maybe, because canada solves everything, and we need something to look forward to. just a glimmer of hope to keep us moving this fast and a possibly a literal light at the end of the tunnel. in canada.
love,
k.