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i feel so confused with things right now. ive been having to make all of these important decisions lately and i'm not getting any pleasure from it. Come to think of it, I don't enjoy too many things anymore.
i wish i could just get out of this rut
and just be happy. i have a lot to
be gracious about and yet i still feel this void;
which makes me feel worse because it gets me thinking
how much of an ungrateful bitch i am. i just want things to
be ok... just ok. it's not like i dont try though, i do.
::sigh:: you don't want to hear about this shit.
today was stupid.
i really miss andrew. i was reminiscing today and remembered all of our silly comics, his witty jokes, our kick ass commercials, smoking in the parking lot of the shrine with mates of state blaring through the speakers waiting for krystal to get out of church lmfao! trips to gilberts, our near death experiences, all those crazy drunken nights, random people worshipping him under the alias 'the drunk guy', his mixes ... amongst a ton of other memories.
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