frugal
i'm getting so tired of these moodswings
my last entry is all tears for fears about pat
but right now i'm super happy to be with him.
little things like him having no gas but driving across town
to make sure I have a bowl and a cigarette yesterday
when he had 20 minutes to be to work.
&& him bringing me chinese food and lemonade today when he had to go to business class at 2
I like to know he cares and that he thinks about my well-being.
one thing bothering me:
I was looking through his new phone the other day,
not really snooping, just seeing who had his new number.
there was someone in there named Star...at first I thought it sounded
like a stripper and I was like "wtf" and then I started thinking about his
ex from high school (which was like 5 or 6 years ago for him) hannah and I
remembered once he told me he used to call her star and that she had asked him
a few months ago to keep calling her that and he was like no, we're not together anymore.
he told me that before we were really a couple, but why would he put her in his phone as star?
a few months ago he wasn't willing to call her that and I wasn't even officially with him.
am I overreacting? should I even confront him about it?
I'm not really worried about him cheating or anything, it's just that I know he wouldn't
feel comfortable with me calling one of my ex's a pet name we had when we were fucking.
or maybe he would feel fine with it, but I wouldn't do something like that.
it's just inconsiderate, even if he had no way of knowing. I guess I'll have to ask him
about it when the time is right.
so I'm hungry. the chinese food he brought me was not great, but that's alright.
tomorrow's the big day supposedly. I'm nervous.
my last entry is all tears for fears about pat
but right now i'm super happy to be with him.
little things like him having no gas but driving across town
to make sure I have a bowl and a cigarette yesterday
when he had 20 minutes to be to work.
&& him bringing me chinese food and lemonade today when he had to go to business class at 2
I like to know he cares and that he thinks about my well-being.
one thing bothering me:
I was looking through his new phone the other day,
not really snooping, just seeing who had his new number.
there was someone in there named Star...at first I thought it sounded
like a stripper and I was like "wtf" and then I started thinking about his
ex from high school (which was like 5 or 6 years ago for him) hannah and I
remembered once he told me he used to call her star and that she had asked him
a few months ago to keep calling her that and he was like no, we're not together anymore.
he told me that before we were really a couple, but why would he put her in his phone as star?
a few months ago he wasn't willing to call her that and I wasn't even officially with him.
am I overreacting? should I even confront him about it?
I'm not really worried about him cheating or anything, it's just that I know he wouldn't
feel comfortable with me calling one of my ex's a pet name we had when we were fucking.
or maybe he would feel fine with it, but I wouldn't do something like that.
it's just inconsiderate, even if he had no way of knowing. I guess I'll have to ask him
about it when the time is right.
so I'm hungry. the chinese food he brought me was not great, but that's alright.
tomorrow's the big day supposedly. I'm nervous.