emoscarling
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Well fuckshit Batman
Long-LONG time since I posted here..Havn't needed to. I've been good for quite a while now. No cutting or bruising..I was doing really good.
But.
Oh yes. There's always a but.
But, I cut major last night. I got in one of my, numb moods and I just was like fuck it.
I cut my side a good number of times, nothing deep, but enough to bleed and scab.
Then after that I started, for no reason, wanting to kill myself..I toyed with the idea for a while but in the end I just ended up cutting my wrist and letting myself bleed into the trash can next to my bed for about a half hour. Then I bandaged myself up and went to bed.
Now I'm fine today. But all I can think about it cutting again...apart of me is thinking that it's more like a bloodlust now...
It's just calming to feel the little burning after you're done...
Who knows, I don't.
And I know my new boyfriend sure doesn't. He's gonna flip when he finds out..ah well. Ain't nothing I can do about it.
But.
Oh yes. There's always a but.
But, I cut major last night. I got in one of my, numb moods and I just was like fuck it.
I cut my side a good number of times, nothing deep, but enough to bleed and scab.
Then after that I started, for no reason, wanting to kill myself..I toyed with the idea for a while but in the end I just ended up cutting my wrist and letting myself bleed into the trash can next to my bed for about a half hour. Then I bandaged myself up and went to bed.
Now I'm fine today. But all I can think about it cutting again...apart of me is thinking that it's more like a bloodlust now...
It's just calming to feel the little burning after you're done...
Who knows, I don't.
And I know my new boyfriend sure doesn't. He's gonna flip when he finds out..ah well. Ain't nothing I can do about it.