apathy, bitches!
I don't even post when I'm ecstatic or miserable anymore because the extremes appear and shift so often that I can't keep track of myself. So, this post is for indifference.
I just spent the past half hour cutting open and picking out all the seeds from a Spanish Ruby pomegranate and it was nice to engross myself in something completely useless. Lauren gave me a new notebook just as I finished my old blue cauliflower one and it is perfect, and I like the way a colorful book with blank pages gives me more closure and happiness than anything else, i.e. applications, SAT scores, report cards, eight hours of sleep, one good meal, money in my account. And what I really mean by that is I finally learned that living my life for numbers is not actually living at all.
The maple outside my window is the most orange, red, purple, brown and green thing I've ever seen. Everybody here is knitting and I love it. Also, I'm going back to Virginia for New Year's if all goes well. It's all gonna be fine.
do not be afraid
I just spent the past half hour cutting open and picking out all the seeds from a Spanish Ruby pomegranate and it was nice to engross myself in something completely useless. Lauren gave me a new notebook just as I finished my old blue cauliflower one and it is perfect, and I like the way a colorful book with blank pages gives me more closure and happiness than anything else, i.e. applications, SAT scores, report cards, eight hours of sleep, one good meal, money in my account. And what I really mean by that is I finally learned that living my life for numbers is not actually living at all.
The maple outside my window is the most orange, red, purple, brown and green thing I've ever seen. Everybody here is knitting and I love it. Also, I'm going back to Virginia for New Year's if all goes well. It's all gonna be fine.
do not be afraid