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I've been crying a lot lately, but not because I'm sad. Maybe it's because 4 years ago I couldn't dream up what my life would be like right now. Maybe it's because of the fact that in a week I'll be done with high school and it hasn't hit me yet. Maybe it's because I'm scared that once I'm in college, my parents will be half way across the country. Maybe it's because I don't think I'm ready and maybe it's because I've been ready. Maybe it's because I have no control over time and how quickly it goes by. Maybe it's because I'm going to have the best job this summer. Maybe it's because I'm sick of giving up on people, or maybe it's because I'm sick of people giving up on me. Maybe it's because I've realized that a friendship is nothing more than two people not wanting to be alone. Maybe it's because some girls will never learn how to balance a friendship and a relationship. Maybe it's because it worries me how immature some people act. Maybe it's because I've come to find that even the nicest people will talk a mouthful of shit about anybody and everybody. Maybe it's because I'm sick of always being busy. Maybe it's because I'm done making everyone happy. Maybe it's because I'm happy that I'm going to get away from my past and be able to have [an almost] fresh start. Maybe it's because I've matured SO MUCH in the past 6 months. Maybe it's because I miss being your friend. Maybe it's because my life is finally starting to relax. Maybe it's because summer's around the corner and I ate watermelon today for the first time in months. Maybe it's because right now, where I'm at, is the beginning of an entirely new chapter in my life.