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its great to know that people care about me. and i understand that some of the decisions i make hurt them. and i can argue for both ways. and im not even going to start on that.
all i want to do right now is sleep. well then wake up and do drugs. but then heres the thing. the things you want to do and things you actually end up doing is different. i want to ask her out, but i dont do it. i want to do drugs everyday, but i dont. some times i want to beat the living shit out of some kids, but i dont. you see theres a point there.
everyone thinks that im weak. i mean i do have weak parts in me. but then i know that im better than how i present myself. im not some whiny emo kid that complains all the time. i just do that so i can vent my stress. if i wanted to i can vent in other ways. if i want to i can quit drugs right now. and not do it for a while.
people might argue that this is denial. but people who say that are dismissing the fact that im capable in stop using drugs. it can be a problem or it already might be a problem. but that depends on your point of view. im strong. i can stop. im just chosing not to right now.
all i want to do right now is sleep. well then wake up and do drugs. but then heres the thing. the things you want to do and things you actually end up doing is different. i want to ask her out, but i dont do it. i want to do drugs everyday, but i dont. some times i want to beat the living shit out of some kids, but i dont. you see theres a point there.
everyone thinks that im weak. i mean i do have weak parts in me. but then i know that im better than how i present myself. im not some whiny emo kid that complains all the time. i just do that so i can vent my stress. if i wanted to i can vent in other ways. if i want to i can quit drugs right now. and not do it for a while.
people might argue that this is denial. but people who say that are dismissing the fact that im capable in stop using drugs. it can be a problem or it already might be a problem. but that depends on your point of view. im strong. i can stop. im just chosing not to right now.