Aug 23, 2007 03:32
It's true what they say, you know. You never go through a dark place learning any of the things you wanted to. I've yet to learn how to accept myself, how to adapt a positive outlook, how to use my character flaws to an advantage. And I've no idea how to cook or how to drum convincingly. But I've learned all kinds of things about myself that I wish I never did, things that make me want to draw the shutters and hide, for the outside world's sake. And I'm learning things about redemption, honesty, and family that I'd prefer not to.
For one thing: just because the world doesn't end and you're not going to die doesn't mean everything is going to be okay. In fact, I've learned, one kind of ("kind of" to mean "strongly") wishes one of those things weren't true; it would offset the latter point.