skulls and crossbones
when everythings good you people comment like crazy. and then when im sad. you dont. sheesh. you friends are funny. [sorry guys I'm cranky]
Well he bought me a my little pony doll on Saturday, After friday he decided I needed a toy. Im starting a collection of ponies. It might be kinda fun.
I went shopping yesterday to cheer myself up a tad. I spent a lot of money I shouldn't have. But I got a new baithing suit - a bikini in fact. its hot. A new watch. A wallet. A shirt. Shoelaces. And I almost bought shoes but I didn't.
I'm really cranky lately. he wants a break, but still texts me and calls me. We still Act the same around eachother to a point. So this break seems useless. And then yesterday he compared me to his ex. Said I act like her more and more everyday. What the hell do you say to that? "okay. fuck you then. if thats the case and you don't wanna be around me. say so i'll fuck off" Well, I didn't say that, but I pretty much just said, that if he wanted to be rid of me... I would go away. Then apparently I whine too much. I'm frustrated with never knowing what to do. I fucking absolutly ADORE the guy, And he's mad/upset at me half the time. Over shit thats so small on the scale of life. We bicker. And argue, and thats fine. Because we work thru everything. But at the same time, we're on this useless break. Whats the purpose when we act the same as before?? I'm seriously considering just letting go. its hurting me, and i'm sure its hurting him too. it's just blah. i dont even know anymore. I wanna work thru it, but at this point... it's like he's trying to blow me off. So i'm just going to let him. And it cuts me so deep.
this is the longest entry I've had in ages. it's my day off and I didn't even get to sleep in. I hate today.
"if love existed, it wouldn't be so soft and easy to ruin..."
Well he bought me a my little pony doll on Saturday, After friday he decided I needed a toy. Im starting a collection of ponies. It might be kinda fun.
I went shopping yesterday to cheer myself up a tad. I spent a lot of money I shouldn't have. But I got a new baithing suit - a bikini in fact. its hot. A new watch. A wallet. A shirt. Shoelaces. And I almost bought shoes but I didn't.
I'm really cranky lately. he wants a break, but still texts me and calls me. We still Act the same around eachother to a point. So this break seems useless. And then yesterday he compared me to his ex. Said I act like her more and more everyday. What the hell do you say to that? "okay. fuck you then. if thats the case and you don't wanna be around me. say so i'll fuck off" Well, I didn't say that, but I pretty much just said, that if he wanted to be rid of me... I would go away. Then apparently I whine too much. I'm frustrated with never knowing what to do. I fucking absolutly ADORE the guy, And he's mad/upset at me half the time. Over shit thats so small on the scale of life. We bicker. And argue, and thats fine. Because we work thru everything. But at the same time, we're on this useless break. Whats the purpose when we act the same as before?? I'm seriously considering just letting go. its hurting me, and i'm sure its hurting him too. it's just blah. i dont even know anymore. I wanna work thru it, but at this point... it's like he's trying to blow me off. So i'm just going to let him. And it cuts me so deep.
this is the longest entry I've had in ages. it's my day off and I didn't even get to sleep in. I hate today.
"if love existed, it wouldn't be so soft and easy to ruin..."