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[__chaoticxfaith]

wow. it's been quite a while.
i've turned 16 since the last time i have written.
that's pretty cool.
and it's true what they say.
you do feel older.
i feel older.
part of me doesn't like it.
part of me wants to go put on a pokemon t-shirt and go to the park barefoot.
part of me wants rocket power to be the show i watch religiously.
part of me wants to go to the dollar store and pick up a surprise for a girl bag.
part of me wants to go buy an icecream from the icecream man and use the change i've collected for the past week.
part of me wants to go to bed everynight and have my only worry be if it will rain tomorrow and ruin my chances of playing outside.
part of me wants my amazement to be made by a rainbow.
part of me just wants to stay innocent.
part of me just wants to stay a child.

but part of me is excited to be grown up.

all the fear and confusion and excitement kind of roll together and make one big blob of emotion that is life.
you keep getting older.
keep outgrowing your phases.
keep wanting more and more and more.
i just want to be happy with less.