you grow me
i have been reminded of d often lately... and i am so far removed from the pain that his photo would initially stir up in me. but i tried you know? i tried to put myself there, but i couldn't. i knew i felt like a discarded carcass. i knew i felt like a shell of myself. and i remember it was this happy disguised in all these shiny red flags. but now--
how did i get so lucky?
i have someone that loves me and grows me and let's me shine so brightly. and i feel like he protects my heart more than i do. and i just feel so fortunate to have someone like this on my team. and could never imagine in this lifetime getting so lucky. and would easily have endured the self-doubt and crippling insecurity with d so i could be in the situation i am in now-- with this selfless, loving human i am lucky enough to have love me. i have spent so much time meandering and trying to feel my worth in this world. and he reminds me every day. that i am worth it. that i am capable. and i am starting to finally see these things for myself. how lucky am i...
how did i get so lucky?
i have someone that loves me and grows me and let's me shine so brightly. and i feel like he protects my heart more than i do. and i just feel so fortunate to have someone like this on my team. and could never imagine in this lifetime getting so lucky. and would easily have endured the self-doubt and crippling insecurity with d so i could be in the situation i am in now-- with this selfless, loving human i am lucky enough to have love me. i have spent so much time meandering and trying to feel my worth in this world. and he reminds me every day. that i am worth it. that i am capable. and i am starting to finally see these things for myself. how lucky am i...