I've got myself so terribly unglued...

[sexytarawitch]

[Continued from here]I heard the belt hit the floor with a wet clang, splashing in the blood from our broken mugs. Images and nightmare type memory's flooded my mind of when I was little and made me shudder

Comments

[sexytarawitch]

I squeezed his hand back slightly and nodded, my eyes damn near lighting up as I looked around the room. "I love it, it's what I wanted." I murmured as I leaned back against him. "I'd hope I wasn't the worst." I teased, feeling a bit better about things and hiding the fact of what I might end up doing when the night was over. "You're stuck with me forever my dear William." Part of me loved that idea.

"Normal..." I laughed slightly and started pulling him into the room, giggling I pushed him into the cushions he placed in the middle of the candles before laying down next to him. "We're Sunnydale foke, I don't think 'normal' is in the handbook."

I reached down and took his hand, lacing his fingers in mine as I lifted his hand to my lips, kissing his fingers lightly with my eyes closed. "I can't explain it, I wish - fucking hell - do I wish I could explain to you what's going on inside me..."

Turning I rested my chin on his chest and looked up at him. "It's like...I'm still here you know? Me, the girl who loved cooking, painting, her kitten, Dawn and the same girl that fell in love with you. Now, there's like this new bit of me that wants to rebel against that, all she wants is the pain and the hurt and she just wants to worship her Sire. I...I don't want that, not that I..." I sighed and closed my eyes. "I miss the old me, I miss a lot of things...I miss...I miss how you looked at her, how you made her feel when you did and when you touched her...like...like she was worth something..."

[ex_lovesbitc93]

"I miss the old me, I miss a lot of things...I miss...I miss how you looked at her, how you made her feel when you did and when you touched her...like...like she was worth something..."

God, is that really how she felt? Like she was just… “You mean something, hell, you mean everything to me Tara,” I said softly, an edge of urgency crept into my voice but I didn’t care. A moment ago I was pissed off that she didn’t seem to want to see that everything I did was for her, but maybe she really didn’t see…maybe I was doing the wrong things.

I pushed her hair away from her face and kissed her forehead.

“I’m sorry I’ve been…rough, I just though,” I sighed, frustrated. “I don’t know what I bloody thought.” I kissed her hair and inhaled its sweet scent. “I s’pose I thought deep down you were enjoying it rough.”

Lifting her chin, I looked into her eyes before kissing her softly. Yeah okay, I liked it rough and part of me loved it when she writhed in pain and pleasure underneath me, made me feel like her god, like I owned her, but maybe that wasn’t the only way to feel that. Not as if I didn’t like it the other way, either…I did, just never had much of a chance to perfect my skills in the sensitive lover department, guess since I’d always been with birds that liked it rough and ready.

“I don’t…I don’t want it to always be like that.” I kissed her again and pushed her softly back into the pillows. “Let me show you how much I love you,” I whispered against her lips. “Like I did that night. I loved you then you know, just hadn’t admitted it to myself.”

[sexytarawitch]

His voice - not really his words - told me that what he was saying was true. that set me on fire and made me crave him even more then I already did. The way he touched me nearly made my body hum as I looked up at him, a smile pulled at the corners of my lips when he looked at me 'that way'.

“I’m sorry I’ve been…rough, I just though, I don’t know what I bloody thought. I s’pose I thought deep down you were enjoying it rough.”

I sighed softly and nodded. "I do...but there's still more then that I like...I love any excuse for you to touch me. The rough, is new. It's hard for all of me to grasp, but that doesn't mean I don't want it." I admitted before he kissed me gently.

Shifting on the pillows I looked into his eyes as his lips ghosted over mine. "Please, William..." I whispered against his lips, running my hands lightly over his arms and shoulders. "Show me, I want you."

Smiling sadly I nodded, running my thumb over his cheek. "I know now...I was afraid then, I was scared to let her go, I was scared to let you in...I was scared to lose you." I ran my hand down his arm and leaned up to his lips again. "We were both stupid."

I ran my fingers through his hair and kissed him hard, needing him and wanting him how I truly craved. "I want you." I gasped against his lips, my eyes meeting his. "Like that night...I love you, please."

[ex_lovesbitc93]

She was so beautiful in the dim light, and suddenly I gained a whole new appreciation for candles. She wanted me, guess I knew she did, but hearing her say it was always a thrill, ‘specially since I wanted her too. Always.

Without a word I pulled back and stripped of my shirt, before catching the hem of hers and pulling it off her, properly this time. I was going to take my time, be gentle, be the sweet, ‘normal’ lover she said she wanted, not like it was a hard game to play…wasn’t sure it even was a game.

“Love you, too,” I said softly, running a hand down her cheek and sinking my body down on top of hers. My cock twitched and arousal started to build warmly in my gut. My mind ran through all the possible ways I could have her right then, but I ignored them, I already knew how I was going to play this round.

Kissing her slowly, I ran my hand down her side, tickling her ribs with my fingertips as I did. I heard her sigh softly against my lips and I pulled back, moving my lips to her neck and trailing kisses down her throat. I wanted to bite her, god did I. Didn’t help that the wound I’d given her less than an hour before was still open…

Sod it. I lapped at the torn flesh softly, not wanting to hurt, just to taste before I shifted and started to move down her body.