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So, I want to write in this again.
I had two dreams last night. At least, I think they were two separate ones. Most of the detail is gone from what I remember now, but they were both SO fucking weird, one more than the other. The first was of my yiayia dying. I have no idea why I dreamed of this but it was devastatingly sad. It felt so real, like, the sadness I felt was equal to the sadness I would feel if it were real. I love my yiayia so much and now I'm worried about her impending death since she is so old.
But on to the second weirder dream. Im just warning you, if anyone is reading this, its really really really weird and I have no idea why I dreamed it. Im a little embarrassed. All I can remember was a strange man who, for some reason, resembled the joker in the Dark Knight. I dont remember if it was makeup that he had on like him or if it was just the scars on his cheeks. I know he had cheek scars. Anyway, he was tall guy, definitely past 6 feet, slightly burly and was wearing a tattered suit. I remember understanding that he had previously killed a lot of people and would kill again. I knew he was insane. He began to walk towards me and he pretty much pinned me against a wall. He was looking at me straight in the eyes and at this point I remember feeling really weird. Like, along the lines of hey, im attracted to you. Then, he was pretty sensual with me, but he proceeded to cut my right ear off. Seriously hahaha. I have no idea why. Well it gets weirder- I didnt mind that he did that; it didnt hurt me. Then he started to kiss me. Weird. Yeah well I kissed back! NO idea. I was totally into this guy. It felt so real too, except my ear didnt hurt at all. I just remember feeling really into him. You know that feeling ladiezzzz. Except this guy was a fucked up, scarred murderer, who just cut off my ear. Nevertheless, he apparently thought I was pretty rad and apparently I thought he was too. OKAY, then, I remember him holding me comfortingly and telling me that he would sew my ear back on but it would get really bloody and it would hurt a lot. He said he didnt want to ruin my dress (I was wearing a dress) and he brought me a brown antique looking smock-like dress, brown, antique looking shoes and once again, brown antique looking elbow length gloves. I have no idea what was up with the clothing assortment, but I remember commenting on how I liked the gloves a lot. He liked that I liked them. I never spoke throughout this whole dream and I recall having the feeling that I was sort of like this man's pet. Like, the type of relationship where the guy keeps his girl in the house and shes only supposed to answer to him and not talk much. I dont know why, and it was never brought up in my dream, I just felt that way. I was totally happy though. I had no ear or what felt like freedom, but I had this strange, insane man and I was fine with that.
I kind of miss him now.
I had two dreams last night. At least, I think they were two separate ones. Most of the detail is gone from what I remember now, but they were both SO fucking weird, one more than the other. The first was of my yiayia dying. I have no idea why I dreamed of this but it was devastatingly sad. It felt so real, like, the sadness I felt was equal to the sadness I would feel if it were real. I love my yiayia so much and now I'm worried about her impending death since she is so old.
But on to the second weirder dream. Im just warning you, if anyone is reading this, its really really really weird and I have no idea why I dreamed it. Im a little embarrassed. All I can remember was a strange man who, for some reason, resembled the joker in the Dark Knight. I dont remember if it was makeup that he had on like him or if it was just the scars on his cheeks. I know he had cheek scars. Anyway, he was tall guy, definitely past 6 feet, slightly burly and was wearing a tattered suit. I remember understanding that he had previously killed a lot of people and would kill again. I knew he was insane. He began to walk towards me and he pretty much pinned me against a wall. He was looking at me straight in the eyes and at this point I remember feeling really weird. Like, along the lines of hey, im attracted to you. Then, he was pretty sensual with me, but he proceeded to cut my right ear off. Seriously hahaha. I have no idea why. Well it gets weirder- I didnt mind that he did that; it didnt hurt me. Then he started to kiss me. Weird. Yeah well I kissed back! NO idea. I was totally into this guy. It felt so real too, except my ear didnt hurt at all. I just remember feeling really into him. You know that feeling ladiezzzz. Except this guy was a fucked up, scarred murderer, who just cut off my ear. Nevertheless, he apparently thought I was pretty rad and apparently I thought he was too. OKAY, then, I remember him holding me comfortingly and telling me that he would sew my ear back on but it would get really bloody and it would hurt a lot. He said he didnt want to ruin my dress (I was wearing a dress) and he brought me a brown antique looking smock-like dress, brown, antique looking shoes and once again, brown antique looking elbow length gloves. I have no idea what was up with the clothing assortment, but I remember commenting on how I liked the gloves a lot. He liked that I liked them. I never spoke throughout this whole dream and I recall having the feeling that I was sort of like this man's pet. Like, the type of relationship where the guy keeps his girl in the house and shes only supposed to answer to him and not talk much. I dont know why, and it was never brought up in my dream, I just felt that way. I was totally happy though. I had no ear or what felt like freedom, but I had this strange, insane man and I was fine with that.
I kind of miss him now.