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shit, I celebrated New years eve at my ex boyfriend, Bjarke's party, and somwhere in the night we started kissing, and it kind of continued on and off through the night. He was´shitfaced drunk, and fell asleep kind of early, and I was high on pot and skunk... A punk named alex hit on me, when we'd been discussing politics for a while. Was kinda disappointed that's all he wanted, because we kinda got talking well. He'sa member of the Youth Socialist union I'm considering joining. I felt like we could become good friends, but then he tried to take my hand. I talked for a looong time with a girl named Sidsel, and we kind of connected. WE discussed politics, future plans, schools and anything really. I'm kind of sad I didn't get her number or anything but she fell asleep pretty early too, she'd been drinking some mixed shit all night, so no wonder really..
But well, I didn't really sleep, and the party continued till the morning, when I started getting down from my high and feeling like shit, I called for my parents to come and get me. That's when reality downed on me with Bjarke and stuff...
I've missed him so much lately, and kind of had a feeling stuff would happen that night, but today UI realize I've missed being friends with him, being around his friends... I don't know what to do now, i'm going to feel like an arse blowing him off again. I asked him if we were together again, and we both thou´ght that we were, and i told him I loved him several times.. fuck.. what am I going to do? he seemed so drunk and in love with me... I'm such a creep, couldn't tell what I was doing cause I was so fucking high.
I smoked pot and skunk with Sofus (jens galchøtt, the artist's son) and in our wastednes, Sofus and I played that thumb game, and tried to bite each others hands... I still have marks from his teeth. He's so greawt, and such a stoner haha.
Well, Bjarke has forgotten his mobile on his school, and we're on christmas holidays right now, so I don't think we'll have any connnection in the next weeks... but I've got to face it sometime maybe. Fact is, I'm thinking I'll join Youth Socialist union, to get friends with Alex, just so Bjarke isn't my only connection to that environtment and the people I like so much.. well of course there's thomas as well, but he's kind of unstable at the time...
Sorry for rambling, but if any of you could give me an advise please do, I'm going crazy, just trying to forget it all..
But well, I didn't really sleep, and the party continued till the morning, when I started getting down from my high and feeling like shit, I called for my parents to come and get me. That's when reality downed on me with Bjarke and stuff...
I've missed him so much lately, and kind of had a feeling stuff would happen that night, but today UI realize I've missed being friends with him, being around his friends... I don't know what to do now, i'm going to feel like an arse blowing him off again. I asked him if we were together again, and we both thou´ght that we were, and i told him I loved him several times.. fuck.. what am I going to do? he seemed so drunk and in love with me... I'm such a creep, couldn't tell what I was doing cause I was so fucking high.
I smoked pot and skunk with Sofus (jens galchøtt, the artist's son) and in our wastednes, Sofus and I played that thumb game, and tried to bite each others hands... I still have marks from his teeth. He's so greawt, and such a stoner haha.
Well, Bjarke has forgotten his mobile on his school, and we're on christmas holidays right now, so I don't think we'll have any connnection in the next weeks... but I've got to face it sometime maybe. Fact is, I'm thinking I'll join Youth Socialist union, to get friends with Alex, just so Bjarke isn't my only connection to that environtment and the people I like so much.. well of course there's thomas as well, but he's kind of unstable at the time...
Sorry for rambling, but if any of you could give me an advise please do, I'm going crazy, just trying to forget it all..