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It's been awhile. I still log in to this a lot to read and stay in touch, but I never write. I haven't really felt like I had anything important to say.
Freshman year was alright. I didn't love it. I'm thinking about transferring. First semester I had no girlfriends, and I think I liked it better that way. Second semester I got a lot closer with the girls on my floor, but after a trip to Puerto Rico, I am looking forward to not seeing them all summer. They rub me the wrong way. I am truly spoiled by the girlfriends I have at home, no matter how much they get to me sometimes. No one will ever be like them. I"m going back to Northeastern next year. I'm rooming with these girls I had class with first semester. We never hung out outside it or anything, so we'll see how it goes. Apparently one of them deals coke, so it should be an interesting year.
I'm dating this boy that lived on the floor below me. It was great while we were at school, but I don't think I like him enough to date him over the summer. I don't know how to break up with him without hurting him though, so it's proving to be difficult.
Home is amazing, except for some minor things. Steph and Bret finally broke up, which is so good because he is such an ass to her. Marla and Matt broke up, or are on a break, or something, but it's good for them. I feel like Kim is on the verge of a breakdown so I'm doing everything I can to be there for her, but it's hard when she only calls me when shes having a rough time. Otherwise, shes always with Sam and Sarah. Don't get me wrong, I'm going to be there if she needs me, I just feel like I'm beginning to resent her for only calling when she needs me. I drop my plans to make sure she's okay, and then she doesn't return my calls. I sound like a little girl whining because she is being left out.
I'm working at a little italian restaurant this summer. So far I really like it. I'm training as a waitress next week, so hopefully I'll be making some good money soon.
Camp is still around for me this summer. I'm going to be there 3/4 which is good but scary. I'm afraid with everyone gone it's going to be really different and I won't like it. but I'm still trying to be positive. Meg, Joe and Owen will be there. still have good friends there so I don't really know why I'm worried.
I've been feeling very unsettled lately. I need a change, a big one. I want to do something completely different, but I have no idea what that something different is.
