watch it.
It isn't that I'm under stress.
I mean, I don't want it to be. It can't be like that anymore.
I've grown up, I assure myself.
I have a healthy lifestyle now. I eat. I sleep. I don't drink nor drug to become numb. I hike. I smoke.
Shut up.
I am at peace. I am finding myself.
fibromyalgia. G.u.r.d. They are simply elements of my life which can be coped with.
Anyway, I'm staying home from school today because I don't have any more allergy medicine and I do have my period which causes my immune system to decease.
I plan to do nothing.
i had breakfast, i want coffee.
i need to drink water because i am boring. no oding today, i promise i promise.
not today, not anymore. drugs are locked away.
only midol.
only 2 pills.
At 9 AM, there is a testimony under oath about the us' security and [apathy regarding] terrorism pre-9.11, which i plan on watching.
I'm going to finish reading a novel, which i cannot tell you about by law.
i will finish pride and prejudice, as well as my term paper.
and homework. then bring it to school and hand it in because i am responsible. and a nerd. with above a 5.0 gpa.
I want to study french. review vocab.
i want to NOT make this a private post like i do with my other entries every single day.
i will eat lunch, maybe grilled cheese. I don't care. i am healthy.
OH! i will go hiking today. i feel bad because there was no hiking for me yesterday.
it's like a promise.
which i broke.
and i can't let promises be broken nor allow them to disappear.
i will go out and buy seeds and buy cd-rs.
i will plant and make mixes for the friends whom i think deserve them.
i will nap.
i will shower.
every month when this happens, i drink gatorade. i don't know why. i don't even like it. it's just tradition.
if my cramps go away, i want you to come over.
today, i will give my mom a hug.
work on my sketchbook and watercolor and acrylic- used as verbs.
i'll print out this list and watch as everything gets crossed out.
i will not break this promise,
because i will not make one.
i will smile today, at some point.
i'll write post cards,
do my parsons project.
i'll buy my typewriter.
I mean, I don't want it to be. It can't be like that anymore.
I've grown up, I assure myself.
I have a healthy lifestyle now. I eat. I sleep. I don't drink nor drug to become numb. I hike. I smoke.
Shut up.
I am at peace. I am finding myself.
fibromyalgia. G.u.r.d. They are simply elements of my life which can be coped with.
Anyway, I'm staying home from school today because I don't have any more allergy medicine and I do have my period which causes my immune system to decease.
I plan to do nothing.
i had breakfast, i want coffee.
i need to drink water because i am boring. no oding today, i promise i promise.
not today, not anymore. drugs are locked away.
only midol.
only 2 pills.
At 9 AM, there is a testimony under oath about the us' security and [apathy regarding] terrorism pre-9.11, which i plan on watching.
I'm going to finish reading a novel, which i cannot tell you about by law.
i will finish pride and prejudice, as well as my term paper.
and homework. then bring it to school and hand it in because i am responsible. and a nerd. with above a 5.0 gpa.
I want to study french. review vocab.
i want to NOT make this a private post like i do with my other entries every single day.
i will eat lunch, maybe grilled cheese. I don't care. i am healthy.
OH! i will go hiking today. i feel bad because there was no hiking for me yesterday.
it's like a promise.
which i broke.
and i can't let promises be broken nor allow them to disappear.
i will go out and buy seeds and buy cd-rs.
i will plant and make mixes for the friends whom i think deserve them.
i will nap.
i will shower.
every month when this happens, i drink gatorade. i don't know why. i don't even like it. it's just tradition.
if my cramps go away, i want you to come over.
today, i will give my mom a hug.
work on my sketchbook and watercolor and acrylic- used as verbs.
i'll print out this list and watch as everything gets crossed out.
i will not break this promise,
because i will not make one.
i will smile today, at some point.
i'll write post cards,
do my parsons project.
i'll buy my typewriter.