But this is real life, it's supposed to be real life, so let's pretend that we're not bored.
Things are wonderful. Absolutely wonderful. The best they've ever been. I've got a great house, amazing roommates, awesome friends. I'm actually enjoying school haha. I'm trying new things. I feel like I've grown into the person I'm supposed to be becoming. I'm not quite there yet of course, I'm only fucking 19 years old. But I'm starting to feel like an actual, real life, person you know? Life is beautiful right now. And I truly mean that.
And yet, I still find myself feeling so incredibly bummed out at times. I don't even really know why. That's what's so frustrating--I try to get my thoughts out and I just can't. Because I guess I just really don't know exactly what it is I want to say.
I think I may be a bit lonely. Oh, so cliche, right? But honestly, it's a little exhausting when everyone around you is in a relationship and you are perpetually single. And when two of your roommates are dating each other? It's hard to not always feel like a 3rd wheel around here sometimes. Not that it's anything they do, they're great. I just...I don't know. I'm being a total girl. But it's just that when everyone around you has someone and you don't...well, how could you not start doubting yourself?
But enough of that. I guess I ended up getting out my thoughts haha because I actually do feel a bit better now. How e-therapeutic.
And yet, I still find myself feeling so incredibly bummed out at times. I don't even really know why. That's what's so frustrating--I try to get my thoughts out and I just can't. Because I guess I just really don't know exactly what it is I want to say.
I think I may be a bit lonely. Oh, so cliche, right? But honestly, it's a little exhausting when everyone around you is in a relationship and you are perpetually single. And when two of your roommates are dating each other? It's hard to not always feel like a 3rd wheel around here sometimes. Not that it's anything they do, they're great. I just...I don't know. I'm being a total girl. But it's just that when everyone around you has someone and you don't...well, how could you not start doubting yourself?
But enough of that. I guess I ended up getting out my thoughts haha because I actually do feel a bit better now. How e-therapeutic.