I didn't mean it when i said i didn't love him!
"I never felt
The feeling that I'm feeling
Now that I don't
Hear your voice
Or have your touch and kiss your lips
Cause I don't have a choice
Oh, what I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my side"
So it's official.. i'm a dumbass. whoo!
I'm really not ready at all to move on!
I miss him like crazy now!
I don't wany to be in "love" with anyone else but him.
I hate hurting people.. but i guess i've been doing that a lot latley!
so i finally went to bed when i was at seans.. i just went back upstairs and fell asleep for like 3-4 hrs.. then my mom called.. then i went downstairs cuz i can't stand being that close to him w/o being able to be held by him... so i went down stairs.. and went to see if niki was awake.. but nope.. so i watched tv for a lil bit.. then i went down stairs after seans dad went down stiars cuz i just knew he woke them up from doing laundry! and they were up.. so me and niki sat there for a lil while.. then went upstiars and watched tv. then sean came down stairs.. cuz my mommie called.. and asked if i still needed a ride.. and yupp yupp i did! then we watched some tv.. and then my sister came to get me and niki.. we got here.. took a shower then ryan came over! we just chilled in my room and then we watched tv.. and ryan and my lil brother were like fighting with stuffed animal.. and yeah i kept getting hit with them cuz i was right in between them! the me and niki made ramen ^.^ then we went swimming.. and then we went to the store to get "chips" but instead ryan had got pretelz (htf is that chips?!?) lol. then we came back home.. watched some tv.. and then niki had to go home.. then we just chilled some.. and then around 9 my mom took ryan home. i got home.. got online.. around 11 something garret, matt, and james came to get me.. and we wen't to ann arbor for like an hour cuz there was nothing at all to do! so i got home.. got online.. no one was on.. then i tried to call sean... but he didn't answer his phoney.. so i guess he was sleeping.. and then i watched tv.. and fell asleep.. woke up this morning at like 1 cuz ryan called... talked to him for 9 mins and 41 secs... (yes i remember the time cuz i remember looking at the phone and yeah) then i got online.. and talked then wrote an entry about how much i messed up.. and yeah! i'll write more later!
love ya <3
Sara.
The feeling that I'm feeling
Now that I don't
Hear your voice
Or have your touch and kiss your lips
Cause I don't have a choice
Oh, what I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my side"
So it's official.. i'm a dumbass. whoo!
I'm really not ready at all to move on!
I miss him like crazy now!
I don't wany to be in "love" with anyone else but him.
I hate hurting people.. but i guess i've been doing that a lot latley!
so i finally went to bed when i was at seans.. i just went back upstairs and fell asleep for like 3-4 hrs.. then my mom called.. then i went downstairs cuz i can't stand being that close to him w/o being able to be held by him... so i went down stairs.. and went to see if niki was awake.. but nope.. so i watched tv for a lil bit.. then i went down stairs after seans dad went down stiars cuz i just knew he woke them up from doing laundry! and they were up.. so me and niki sat there for a lil while.. then went upstiars and watched tv. then sean came down stairs.. cuz my mommie called.. and asked if i still needed a ride.. and yupp yupp i did! then we watched some tv.. and then my sister came to get me and niki.. we got here.. took a shower then ryan came over! we just chilled in my room and then we watched tv.. and ryan and my lil brother were like fighting with stuffed animal.. and yeah i kept getting hit with them cuz i was right in between them! the me and niki made ramen ^.^ then we went swimming.. and then we went to the store to get "chips" but instead ryan had got pretelz (htf is that chips?!?) lol. then we came back home.. watched some tv.. and then niki had to go home.. then we just chilled some.. and then around 9 my mom took ryan home. i got home.. got online.. around 11 something garret, matt, and james came to get me.. and we wen't to ann arbor for like an hour cuz there was nothing at all to do! so i got home.. got online.. no one was on.. then i tried to call sean... but he didn't answer his phoney.. so i guess he was sleeping.. and then i watched tv.. and fell asleep.. woke up this morning at like 1 cuz ryan called... talked to him for 9 mins and 41 secs... (yes i remember the time cuz i remember looking at the phone and yeah) then i got online.. and talked then wrote an entry about how much i messed up.. and yeah! i'll write more later!
love ya <3
Sara.