bored
today was boring, cj jazz and meghan came over...we went to roses but she was not home so we went to the church and over by LaDerek's house and chilled by there with cj jazz, rose, chris, meghan, lindsay, LaDerek, ans i think that was jamear or w\e idk they all played with are cell's and we talked and called people tellin that we where ganna kill Em lol you now the usual lol..... they all called cj and i guess went with him idk...i tryed calling James today and when he got on the phone with him my mom beep thew OMFG was i pissed so i told him i would call back and then when i got home to call back him lil bro was on the phone to his G|F omg and well he didnt call me back :(( :(( idk maybe he dont care that much like he says he dose..... i wish he did, i miss him. i miss talking to him every day on the phone and at school but now all he talks to is mabus and it feels like she rubs it in my face ALL THE TIME.!! OMFG i hate her, i hate it when she brags about him to me *crying* idk i miss him and all i want more then anything right nows is for him to talk to me more and care.....he says he dose but he dont act like he dose.....idk what to do but just hope and dream :(( :(( idk but i think lately lots of my friends have hated me or something but idk maybe that is just how i feel and shit.................idk what to do anymore but cry or just be depressed all day... i talked to Tracie about lots of this stuff, she helps me and i help her but i sometime i think NO ONE CAN HELP ME.....:(( :(( :((