well as for now im gonna hear the saddest songs and sit alone and wonder, how your making out.
I don't know what to say. I just typed that without looking. okay i think im going crazy. Last weekend was blah. I get my wisdom teeth pulled soon... kinda 23 days. I might go to formal with alex, and chloe, and alyse...but I dunno if my parents will let me go cause its in 10 days, and i dunno if im really in the mood. i mean why go if I won't even be happy or have fun? uh i feel so empty and numb. I guess this is the end of me and ben. This is not a plea i just feel like i need to write it somewhere or type or whatever. Im not exactly mad , more sad and i dunno yea actually im mad too. I knew everything would have to end sometime I just didn't think now. i dunno i guess im just too naive. But he meant so much to me, and he was such a big part of me. I guess its all because of the mistakes I made? or maybe im just not up to his par. Well i hope your happy shelly you took away the only thing i ever had. So thanks. Well im never giving that much of myself to a person again. I don't know what else to say, or how to end this...Thanks everyone for helping me today...and just being there. I dunno what I would do without you guys. probablly crawl in a hole and die. ok im pathetic. bye
So many nights, legs tangled tight
Wrap me up in a dream with you
Close up these eyes and try not to cry
All that i've got to pull me through is memories of you