guys suck monkey balls

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hey, i just want to meet one nice guy. lindsey met jp, jess has paul and so on. i just want to feel that way about about some one. i want to meet a nice, genuine guy cuz so far i have not had that much luck. i mean there have been a handful bubba and matt p. are some examples but i fucked up with matt and he was kinda stalkerish. i dont kno about bubba. hes a great person but i dont kno. now lets look at the bad choices, mainly one, andrew. i dont think hes a bad choice its just that it seems that he only talks to me when he is single. he complains we dont hang out well there is a reason. everytime i am with him something happens between us. we usually end up kissing or we flirt to an extreme and seeing that he is with amanda now we cant do that. there is a physical connection between us but thats it. so thats why we dont hang out anymore. maybe at chamanade i will met some one new. the school is so small it amazes me i dont kno what i am going to do. its just not like anything i am ever been in. there is 12-18 kids in a class. thats just soo small. i am only doing it for val, but w/e. who says i am leaving. i really havent gotten accepted yet, we will see.

lindsay