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It is around 9 am. Which is really unusual for me. I tend to sleep in late. I have been having these fever and chills for 2 days now I don’t know what it the cause of it and how to stop it like it is not a cold because I no what a cold feels like this is much different. So sleeping with this has been a real pain in the ass.
Things have been going really good for me I feel bad that I am complaining about stuff. I really don’t have a right to but nonetheless I still feel things around going they way I want them. How contradicting is that?
To make a long story short I’m feel every much alone. And I know I’m not but I cant help feeling like there is something missing it is getting harder and harder to have fun with the people I love. I’m every angered now I have a short fusses. And I’m not too happy about that. I feel every disrespected quite abet. It is the way I handled stuff in the passed that has brought me to this place. I feel like I’m the person that makes people feel better about them selves not because I’m the helping hand, but I’m the easily made fun of. It makes it hard to hang with this people. If I know that I’m going to be the punching bag so I’m slowly moving away from them. I don’t mean to, it just happens i don't like being made fun of. It seems like the only time I don’t get a hard time is when it is just a one on one talk or person to person get together. People that don’t even know are giving me a shitty time.
And on top of this I already miss a friend. Please pray that Melissa has a safe trip while she visits Europe.
And please pray for me that I can get over this.
Love always & forever Jake
Things have been going really good for me I feel bad that I am complaining about stuff. I really don’t have a right to but nonetheless I still feel things around going they way I want them. How contradicting is that?
To make a long story short I’m feel every much alone. And I know I’m not but I cant help feeling like there is something missing it is getting harder and harder to have fun with the people I love. I’m every angered now I have a short fusses. And I’m not too happy about that. I feel every disrespected quite abet. It is the way I handled stuff in the passed that has brought me to this place. I feel like I’m the person that makes people feel better about them selves not because I’m the helping hand, but I’m the easily made fun of. It makes it hard to hang with this people. If I know that I’m going to be the punching bag so I’m slowly moving away from them. I don’t mean to, it just happens i don't like being made fun of. It seems like the only time I don’t get a hard time is when it is just a one on one talk or person to person get together. People that don’t even know are giving me a shitty time.
And on top of this I already miss a friend. Please pray that Melissa has a safe trip while she visits Europe.
And please pray for me that I can get over this.
Love always & forever Jake