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i try not to feel jealous, but it is alot harder than i thought it would be.
of course andrew does have other friends other than me. it is just i dont feel like important to him anymore.
even if he does act like im not really important anymore, i still know that i matter to him. either way or another.
knowing that alone should be enough, but somehow that still isnt enough to make me feel better.
and there is also the fact that there are different type of friends. i am not the friend type that roy, michael, and ian are to andrew. maybe i am more like family to him. maybe this explains why. maybe not...
maybe im jealous b/c i dont have a buddy-buddy to hang out with at tams. i mean thanh is cool and all and i guess i consider him my buddy, but he is roomming with alex next semester and something tells me we wont be hanging out as much anymore. someone please tell me im wrong.
maybe im just being stupid altogether. i thought about that too, a long time ago. and if im still thinking about it now, maybe this isnt just me being stupid afterall.
hahaha kinda ironic. living with andrew actually makes me feel more distant from him. and now he rarely sleeps in the room. he sleeps with roy and i still feel distant.
of course andrew does have other friends other than me. it is just i dont feel like important to him anymore.
even if he does act like im not really important anymore, i still know that i matter to him. either way or another.
knowing that alone should be enough, but somehow that still isnt enough to make me feel better.
and there is also the fact that there are different type of friends. i am not the friend type that roy, michael, and ian are to andrew. maybe i am more like family to him. maybe this explains why. maybe not...
maybe im jealous b/c i dont have a buddy-buddy to hang out with at tams. i mean thanh is cool and all and i guess i consider him my buddy, but he is roomming with alex next semester and something tells me we wont be hanging out as much anymore. someone please tell me im wrong.
maybe im just being stupid altogether. i thought about that too, a long time ago. and if im still thinking about it now, maybe this isnt just me being stupid afterall.
hahaha kinda ironic. living with andrew actually makes me feel more distant from him. and now he rarely sleeps in the room. he sleeps with roy and i still feel distant.