Looking in retrospect through a kaleidescope

[__asthenia__]

Today is day 5,293 of my life.
I am sick of who I am. I despise my own reflection. No, not because I think I am ugly, or because I think I am fat, but because I am me. Every morning, I contemplate punching the mirror so hard that my personality bleeds out from my knuckles. Every morning, I contemplate bleeding my personality out of me. I have tried

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[____hydrostatic]

danny,
we don't know each other, but i know this much is true. what i have heard about you from others has made me think very highly of you. everyone always has so many good things to say about you. the only time i have heard people speak negatively of you was out of either pure jealousy, or because they, themselves, find the need to put you down becuase they aren't comfortable with who they are. never have they spoken negatively of you for any good reason whatsoever. i can't say that about many people, even the people i know. you seem so real and present yourself in such a way that makes me curious. i think you are one of those people that people wonder about and when they pass by and think "i wonder what's going on in his head" because you have this vibe that makes people wonder. abd it's good to make people wonder. that shows that you aren't just a simple, plain, uniteresting being, but the exact opposite. i used to hate myself to the point that i would actually think "i wonder how i could be more like so-and-so" and i would try to find ways to be like anyone and everyone i thought were better than me. those were the worst years of my life. trying to find ways to not be me was such a waste of so much more i could have been. i don't think anyone should want to be someone else, or not be themselves, because it would be such a waste of who you are. reading this makes me mad because i don't think anyone should feel this way about themselves, especially you because everyone, but yourself, thinks the opposite of you. this may seem weird because this is all coming from someone you don't even know, and maybe this is weird of me, but so what. just know that you are lucky to be who you are, and you should see that in the mirror knowing that you are capable of so much and contribute to this world and every person around you. it would be such a waste to turn that all around and hate yourself.