Sorry if I seem vague
This is something I haven't quite experienced before. I don't know how I'll deal with it. Right now the crying has stopped, but it'll probably come back. I'm on about three hours of sleep, who knows how that'll effect the whole thing.
I was so young when Trixie was put down that I didn't understand what was going on - same with Coco and Spike. I never really knew Kira, and Misfit just sorta disappeared, there was no solid end for her in my mind.
I think the biggest thing for me right now is how hard it has to be on my grandparents - especially Grandpa. I think it's harder for me to deal with the impact a death has on those I'm close to than it is for me to deal with my own grief.
I guess she had a major seizure earlier this week, and something didn't get connected right in her brain. She's confused by everything, she can't understand where to go to the bathroom, one of her legs doesn't really work and she can't get off of the bed by herself. It's time - she wont get better, she'll only suffer. I understand why, but that only makes it somewhat easier. I'll miss her. I'll miss the happiness she brings to my Grandpa. I have no idea what kind of afterlife I'll meet, and even less of an idea of what waits for her. Whatever it is though, even if it's simple oblivion, I'm sure that this is the best thing for her and for everyone involved despite how painful it is.
It'll probably be a really rough couple days as I go through the various stages of grief. I think I'm at denial given that it's hard to see it as real, or as something that has a concrete impact. That'll change, though.
It's going to be hard to see my grandparents or to go over there for a little while. Their sadness and the vast emptiness of that huge house will be too apparent.
I'm saddened, exhausted, nauseous, having a migraine and all around in a really awful place right now.
I have no idea how the rest of the family is dealing.
I was so young when Trixie was put down that I didn't understand what was going on - same with Coco and Spike. I never really knew Kira, and Misfit just sorta disappeared, there was no solid end for her in my mind.
I think the biggest thing for me right now is how hard it has to be on my grandparents - especially Grandpa. I think it's harder for me to deal with the impact a death has on those I'm close to than it is for me to deal with my own grief.
I guess she had a major seizure earlier this week, and something didn't get connected right in her brain. She's confused by everything, she can't understand where to go to the bathroom, one of her legs doesn't really work and she can't get off of the bed by herself. It's time - she wont get better, she'll only suffer. I understand why, but that only makes it somewhat easier. I'll miss her. I'll miss the happiness she brings to my Grandpa. I have no idea what kind of afterlife I'll meet, and even less of an idea of what waits for her. Whatever it is though, even if it's simple oblivion, I'm sure that this is the best thing for her and for everyone involved despite how painful it is.
It'll probably be a really rough couple days as I go through the various stages of grief. I think I'm at denial given that it's hard to see it as real, or as something that has a concrete impact. That'll change, though.
It's going to be hard to see my grandparents or to go over there for a little while. Their sadness and the vast emptiness of that huge house will be too apparent.
I'm saddened, exhausted, nauseous, having a migraine and all around in a really awful place right now.
I have no idea how the rest of the family is dealing.