I guess I should post
Not that I really have anything to report...
I mean, I do, I've made a lot of big decisions this past week or two, and things are changing a lot. They just... feel kind of meaningless, at least, I think they would to people who aren't me.
Andy and I are still not legally married. There's a whole big to-do to getting married as of this year - last year you could just go down to the courthouse, have a judge sign a piece of paper and you were married. Now you have to go down to some special bureau (Health and Family services or something, I don't remember for sure), get some special papers, file it, file the minister's letter of good standing somewhere else (no one in the system seems to know where...), pay $100 (unless you get pre-marriage counseling, then it's $25... problem is, no one in the system seems to know what that is) and then some other stuff has to happen.
Also, his paycheck was only about $200 this month. Turns out, the 5 days of PTO he took - yeah, only one day of that was actually PTO, and then he got paid for the 4th because everyone does. We're fine, it's just annoying. Hopefully we'll at least get the $68 from overdraft fees back (Jo-Ann double charged us on a $50 purchase, so then a 5 and a 2 dollar purchase got two overdrafts. According to the bank, Jo-Ann has to pay it).
But, by far the biggest thing to happen since CONvergence - I have decided to quit smoking. I know, I know, I've said that before (like how a year ago I was having my last pack at con?)... but this time it's for real. I even got on this medication to help me. Sure, it's giving me nightmares and making me nauseous all day long, plus increasing the frequency of my migraines... But that just proves how serious I am about this. The side-effects will only last as long as I'm taking the medication, but the damage from smoking could be way worse and will be there for the rest of my life. And the pharmacist said it could wear off in a week, as my body gets used to the meds. I sure hope so. I get to keep smoking as long as I want, but the meds will make it so that during the second week, the nicotine receptors are blocked, and the cigarettes wont cure my cravings anymore. Then they're just taste bad and not do anything for me, and the idea is that I'll stop smoking. And then, a few weeks from there, I wont have physical or psychological cravings anymore. I guess it's kind of a cheaters (or coward's) way out - not just fighting the addiction that I got myself into with the force of my own will... but they say nicotine is a stronger addiction than heroin, and I don't think anyone faults anyone for needing methadone to help them kick their heroin habit. Besides, I'd rather be a cheater/coward than a smoker at this point.
I guess that's all. Kittens are a huge pain, but totally worth it. They're 14 weeks old today - going to get them fixed soon, just in case puberty hits a little early and they decide to mate.
Also, happy birthday, E. :)
My posts are always so long...
By the way, I'm losing weight. :) It's nice. I'm starting to feel comfortable in clothes I haven't been in in a long time. Part of it was not feeling up to eating at con, another part is that I'm actually cooking every meal from scratch, and also that these pills are leaving me so unable to eat, so I get a good amount of food in meals, rather than just snacking all day, on top of the meals I make for Andy. I'm down to 142~, though I'm willing to bet most of you never knew I was that heavy.
Anyway, this post is way too long.
I mean, I do, I've made a lot of big decisions this past week or two, and things are changing a lot. They just... feel kind of meaningless, at least, I think they would to people who aren't me.
Andy and I are still not legally married. There's a whole big to-do to getting married as of this year - last year you could just go down to the courthouse, have a judge sign a piece of paper and you were married. Now you have to go down to some special bureau (Health and Family services or something, I don't remember for sure), get some special papers, file it, file the minister's letter of good standing somewhere else (no one in the system seems to know where...), pay $100 (unless you get pre-marriage counseling, then it's $25... problem is, no one in the system seems to know what that is) and then some other stuff has to happen.
Also, his paycheck was only about $200 this month. Turns out, the 5 days of PTO he took - yeah, only one day of that was actually PTO, and then he got paid for the 4th because everyone does. We're fine, it's just annoying. Hopefully we'll at least get the $68 from overdraft fees back (Jo-Ann double charged us on a $50 purchase, so then a 5 and a 2 dollar purchase got two overdrafts. According to the bank, Jo-Ann has to pay it).
But, by far the biggest thing to happen since CONvergence - I have decided to quit smoking. I know, I know, I've said that before (like how a year ago I was having my last pack at con?)... but this time it's for real. I even got on this medication to help me. Sure, it's giving me nightmares and making me nauseous all day long, plus increasing the frequency of my migraines... But that just proves how serious I am about this. The side-effects will only last as long as I'm taking the medication, but the damage from smoking could be way worse and will be there for the rest of my life. And the pharmacist said it could wear off in a week, as my body gets used to the meds. I sure hope so. I get to keep smoking as long as I want, but the meds will make it so that during the second week, the nicotine receptors are blocked, and the cigarettes wont cure my cravings anymore. Then they're just taste bad and not do anything for me, and the idea is that I'll stop smoking. And then, a few weeks from there, I wont have physical or psychological cravings anymore. I guess it's kind of a cheaters (or coward's) way out - not just fighting the addiction that I got myself into with the force of my own will... but they say nicotine is a stronger addiction than heroin, and I don't think anyone faults anyone for needing methadone to help them kick their heroin habit. Besides, I'd rather be a cheater/coward than a smoker at this point.
I guess that's all. Kittens are a huge pain, but totally worth it. They're 14 weeks old today - going to get them fixed soon, just in case puberty hits a little early and they decide to mate.
Also, happy birthday, E. :)
My posts are always so long...
By the way, I'm losing weight. :) It's nice. I'm starting to feel comfortable in clothes I haven't been in in a long time. Part of it was not feeling up to eating at con, another part is that I'm actually cooking every meal from scratch, and also that these pills are leaving me so unable to eat, so I get a good amount of food in meals, rather than just snacking all day, on top of the meals I make for Andy. I'm down to 142~, though I'm willing to bet most of you never knew I was that heavy.
Anyway, this post is way too long.