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hey, it's been a while since I've updated. I've begun to wonder whether or not anyone actually reads this journal, and as of lately, I've come to the conclusion that probably not.
It's like I'm writing just to have my thoughts out in the open.
What an eye opener these past years have been. I've lost a bunch of friends, but they went peacefully. Usually without reason, for some, but some I can pinpoint why. I got sick of taking shit from people. From being treated like a doormat.
I've also made quite a few friends. But what does it matter?
I'm going to college this September. A lot of my other friends are going to. Does this mean we'll be closer? Not likely. Even before, when a good friend of mine said we'd get closer because we had a few classes together, it never happened. I do miss her though. I guess we never really clicked in our "older" years. I guess we were meant to be friends as kids.
I also stopped talking to my best friend of like six years. We made up briefly, but things are back to us never communicating. Which sucks. I'll call her today.
I moved out. I miss my brother a lot...more than I ever thought. I don't really miss the house, though. That atmosphere had me raging and crying every time I stepped foot in the door.
I am entering the next phase of my life. I graduated high school, I'm going to college...I can barely believe it. It seems like yesterday when I was fretting about attending high school. It seems like a week ago when me and all my best friends were doing each other's makeup and talking about how cool it's going to be to be a teenager. Now I am one, and I don't sense a change. I feel the same as I always have.
It's like I'm writing just to have my thoughts out in the open.
What an eye opener these past years have been. I've lost a bunch of friends, but they went peacefully. Usually without reason, for some, but some I can pinpoint why. I got sick of taking shit from people. From being treated like a doormat.
I've also made quite a few friends. But what does it matter?
I'm going to college this September. A lot of my other friends are going to. Does this mean we'll be closer? Not likely. Even before, when a good friend of mine said we'd get closer because we had a few classes together, it never happened. I do miss her though. I guess we never really clicked in our "older" years. I guess we were meant to be friends as kids.
I also stopped talking to my best friend of like six years. We made up briefly, but things are back to us never communicating. Which sucks. I'll call her today.
I moved out. I miss my brother a lot...more than I ever thought. I don't really miss the house, though. That atmosphere had me raging and crying every time I stepped foot in the door.
I am entering the next phase of my life. I graduated high school, I'm going to college...I can barely believe it. It seems like yesterday when I was fretting about attending high school. It seems like a week ago when me and all my best friends were doing each other's makeup and talking about how cool it's going to be to be a teenager. Now I am one, and I don't sense a change. I feel the same as I always have.