Sep 12, 2005 15:46
Once I got into my car, I punched the steering wheel and looked back into the glass doors. They got Faith and took her on up and that would probably be the last time that I'd see her. Didn't want to do those things, but when you're running out of options, you have to just ... go with it. Get it done and get it over with and move on. This was the only way, the only thing that she of course thought of. Then again, I was coming up with any suggestions and now I was feeling almost sick to my stomach just by leaving her here. But, I had to.
Pulling away and out of the parking lot, I drove off, speeding, getting as far away as I could. I already knew where I could go and that would be the only place that I could go. Buffy. I would have to tell her what happened because she would want an explaination but right now? I'm thinking the truth would be fine. Either that? Or I'm going away. Far away from all of this, but I'm sure that Faith would know where I'm at. She'd come for me. Now the question was, would Warren follow her? Or would she willingly let him come? At this point, I didn't know and I didn't want to know the answer to that because Faith is right about Warren. He'd take care of her no matter what and now that he'd see Faith like this? He'd be coming after me. Which makes me wonder why we didn't stay in the dimension with the pretty waves.
I had no home, no job, barely had this car. I'm sure if Wolfram and Hart found out that I had it, which I'm sure they already do, they're probably going to mark it as stolen which wouldn't help me one bit. I was basically screwed no matter what and I was an enemy to everything that there was in this country now. Just because Warren ran it. I wonder if he already knows and he's already on his way down? I don't know, but my foot keeps pushing down that gas pedal so I can go anywhere but here.
I just hope that Faith ends up okay. I stopped myself, which ... yeah, but still. I didn't want to do it but at the time when you have nothing left? The thoughts come to you and you just have to roll with it. You think it's best at the time but now that I'm driving out of California to save my unlife ... things aren't really as straight as they once seem.