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I think it's time to take this journal in a new direction... not that I actually believe many people or any people read it. I just decided that maybe I should chage it up for my own sake.
I'm sitting here with a black cup of coffee. More black than I'm used too. Chloe said that when we first met she thought I was the kind of guy that would drink black coffee. I think she was both surprised and dissapointed that I wasn't. I wasn't until tonight, that is. I decided she was right. I am the kind of man that drinks coffee straight. I'm not sure that looking back on it I can respect myself if I don't now.
I'm going to be making a lot of these small changes. I need to take a step back and assess some of the small things that I do on a normal basis and ask myself, "Am I caught up in an 18 year olds routine? Does this truly reflect who I am now and what I wish to portray?"
I also need to stay quiet and confident; strong and in control.
I think to myself, "I miss her right now," and then I interrupt with, "Stay cool. Don't reveal too much of yourself anymore." Wait until the right moment. Don't force a moment. It backfires. Let it happen and be in control of the situation. Be ready.
Honestly, I can get used to this black coffee thing. I can get used to a lot of this.
I'm sitting here with a black cup of coffee. More black than I'm used too. Chloe said that when we first met she thought I was the kind of guy that would drink black coffee. I think she was both surprised and dissapointed that I wasn't. I wasn't until tonight, that is. I decided she was right. I am the kind of man that drinks coffee straight. I'm not sure that looking back on it I can respect myself if I don't now.
I'm going to be making a lot of these small changes. I need to take a step back and assess some of the small things that I do on a normal basis and ask myself, "Am I caught up in an 18 year olds routine? Does this truly reflect who I am now and what I wish to portray?"
I also need to stay quiet and confident; strong and in control.
I think to myself, "I miss her right now," and then I interrupt with, "Stay cool. Don't reveal too much of yourself anymore." Wait until the right moment. Don't force a moment. It backfires. Let it happen and be in control of the situation. Be ready.
Honestly, I can get used to this black coffee thing. I can get used to a lot of this.