soo im supposed to be clearing out my room but..
instead im listening to robs country cd from 2003.. i found it awhile ago but never returned it to him when he asked for it back years ago.. and a few months ago. yea dont leave stuff with me youll never get it back haha.
soo im listening to it and its bring back memories and i dont know if i should smile or start crying. its just all so confusing.. and i hurts so much too. if i could just change one thing in the world i would go back to the night when i was talking to him on the fone laying in bed.. and trying to work it all out. ive never missed someone so much in my whole entire life. and wanted something to work out soo bad.
through all the bullshit and everything we've been through and i still love him more then i could love anyone in this whole entire world thats got to count for something. i just wish it was easier to figure it all out. we just started talkin again. and i dont want to throw myself out there.. im tryin soo hard to keep all of my emotions in. cause the last thing i would want to do right now is to scare him off.
its been almost 4 years since we've been together. and i cant even move on. ive tried but once i get close to someone all i do is think of him and compare others too him. rob set such high standards.
i wish i could explain what makes me soo attracted to him or what makes me love him. but its indiscribible. i think thats what true love is it when you cant stop thinkin about someone they stay in the back of your mind. they touched a place in your heart that you can never forget about them or move on from them.
ive had to heart to hearts with 2 of his close friends. but i just wish i knew what was in robs heart. i wish it was soo much easier then all of this. him to just come out and say. i was us to be together. he already knows how much i care i dont think i could say it anymore.
but im done with this for now. im soo emotionally torn. i feel sick to my stomach i want to cry.. im gonna lose it.
soo im listening to it and its bring back memories and i dont know if i should smile or start crying. its just all so confusing.. and i hurts so much too. if i could just change one thing in the world i would go back to the night when i was talking to him on the fone laying in bed.. and trying to work it all out. ive never missed someone so much in my whole entire life. and wanted something to work out soo bad.
through all the bullshit and everything we've been through and i still love him more then i could love anyone in this whole entire world thats got to count for something. i just wish it was easier to figure it all out. we just started talkin again. and i dont want to throw myself out there.. im tryin soo hard to keep all of my emotions in. cause the last thing i would want to do right now is to scare him off.
its been almost 4 years since we've been together. and i cant even move on. ive tried but once i get close to someone all i do is think of him and compare others too him. rob set such high standards.
i wish i could explain what makes me soo attracted to him or what makes me love him. but its indiscribible. i think thats what true love is it when you cant stop thinkin about someone they stay in the back of your mind. they touched a place in your heart that you can never forget about them or move on from them.
ive had to heart to hearts with 2 of his close friends. but i just wish i knew what was in robs heart. i wish it was soo much easier then all of this. him to just come out and say. i was us to be together. he already knows how much i care i dont think i could say it anymore.
but im done with this for now. im soo emotionally torn. i feel sick to my stomach i want to cry.. im gonna lose it.