I'm alive! I'm double wammy alive!
Well, aside from proclaiming to the world that I love my baby's daddy, I haven't updated since May 18th!!! This might be long but come on, you gotta know where I'm at!! And I'm saving the best for last, suckas.
School: I am a junior!! By summer I will be a Senior! And it's exciting! I am doing good in Organic Chem surprisingly, and in Medical Terminology, but apparently, Anatomy and Physiology II is harder than part 1 and I'm working on my B :( I could afford to go to class and study more though. And my Nutrition class sucks, my teacher sucks and even though I am applying to my program in May, I have a C in this freakin class. My only C, which would also be my 2nd C ever (coincidence?? no, Dr.Yang is a big WANG), happens to be in the course most specific to my major. But its going up, still, super lame. I registered for next semester and there are some discrepancies but it'll be okay...still don't understand why I have to take my Computer Science NOW since it's not written on the Prereq.'s list but whatever.
Sorority: I just love my sisters even though Josey sometimes tries to run this shit like it's a damn business! They are very supportive and pretty much my only girlfriends besides Sofia so its good. Plus I'm getting all the great community service I need to get in the Dietetics program.
Work: I was working with Daniel, my boyfriend/fiance/soulmate/best friend :), at Schlotzsky's for about two months since I needed extra cash not to mention 80 hrs. in the food industry for, you guessed it, my Dietetics program. And since they hired me on the spot, I ran with it. It was dandy since we didn't have supervision on the night shift and we got to eat, and dance, and get high all the time, not to mention getting paid to hang out with the love of my life, but then I got knocked up and the customers started to PISS ME THE FUCK OFF and the deli meat would make me want to BARF. and my grades started to suck once school started. so now i'm free, but i still got some $$. B-On Time Loan should be coming any week now though.....I hope!! I also hope I'm still gonna B On Time so i don't have to pay that shit back!!
Living Situation: My new apartment is MUCH nicer than the one I used to have, it's all cute and home-y, though smaller, but then again I did live in a two story...but this is one-story, still two bed 2-bath, and newer and not ghetto. Well, edinburg can be ghetto, my bike DID get stolen, but its not ghetto to the unaided eye. ricky WAS living with me, but my parents moved him out because he hadn't gotten a job after two months, wasn't going to school, was an occupational hanger-outer who would bring over lazy ass stoners with no regard for others who would trash and disrespect the shit out of my house, usually they would just leave it behind, i'd just come home to FILTH AND MESS! and of course i cleaned it up. everyday. after a long day of work and school which none of them can begin to comprehend. lets just say after i got pregnant i seriously began compromising my mental stability over this. i mean, crusty dishes, ink on my upholstered chairs, weed and trash all over my table disablng me to be able to study in my own home. cooking utensils charred and damaged, not to mention unwashed, overflowing garbage, missing food (even though I was the only one throwing down for groceries), dirty people in my bed, stale smoke and dirty bong water smell in my beautiful apt, and dont forget how demmie broke the toilet and then left the shit water for my father to flush out. and dont forget how they disregarded telling me that they had fixed the leak with fucking electrical tape instead of turning the water off with the toilet knob like a competent person so that i WOULDNT have to come home after a 12 hr school day (yes Tues/Thurs. my first class is at 7:45 and my last class ends at 7, not to mention that day I had gone to Daniel's to watch the litle mermaid and eat dinner so by the time i got home it was 11 p.m.) to a FLOODED ASS HOUSE. i was literally flushing out toilet water from my living room with a dustpan!! it leaked through the walls from the bathroom to the living room, in the opposite direction to the baby's room (ricky's old room) and started to go into my room when I arrived home. it took 4 glorious hours to clean up (by myself since ricky and friends were nowhere to be found) and my house smells musty and i can already see the mold growing in my head. i happen to be allergic to mold and may have to move to a new apartment. let's not mention the fact that ricky removed my laptop from my house without my permission (having got his stolen in austin this summer) and left it at some apt., the NEIGHBORS of a friend, whom he did not know well, and some GHOST, stole my laptop. it might've helped if he had filed a police report so i could get a new one, but after bugging him for two weeks, he still hadn't...so i just did it myself. I love Ricky. I really do. but life has been SO ridiculously easier since he has moved out. i just wish he'd go back to my parents house instead of squatting with friends.
ok, these angry feelings aren't good for the baby. next topic. i got run into the wall on the expressway by an 18 wheeler and don't have a car.
next topic. i just love daniel bazan!! my last entry read : i am in the most intriguing, spectacular little romance with my chem lab 1 crush, daniel. he's put quite a little twist on whatever it is that we have, i'm not quite sure what it is. all i know is that i haven't felt this way in years and he's never felt this way ever so uhhh I LOVE HIM! and he is so disciplined in the sheets! he encourages my abstinence even whenever i momentarily turn into a freak-a-leek! and we've already spent about 20 nights together!! wheewheewhee! he's been trying to fight the moonlight, never having had a girlfriend and all, but he's already spent four nights with me this week as opposed to the usual once a week, sometimes once every other week since january or february, so i think its safe to say it's getting harder for him to spend time away from me, but he values his independence and his friends are arriving for summertime so i know we'll start seperating ourselves more at least til we both start school in july but i am just so excited to see where this goes! i have been playing my cards very tediously and i seem to be doing everything right! Gracias a Dios, this one's going down in the books..in fact, it already has. wish me luck!
well since then things have kind of just set off into the abyss. well as for that abstinence thing, we started having sex in july cause well, i'll be honest, it was all me, i'm not gonna lie. geez! but he liked it, in fact, i was the first girl to ever make him "ejaculate" and vice versa!! it's just GRAND! except sometimes i get tired and i just wish he'd finish :( ANYWAY, when we started having sex i said, "do you want me to get on birth control?" i should mention that we don't use condoms cause they suck, kill intimacy, and hello, i'd be getting boned forever if we desensitized him. so he says, "well lets think about this, if you get on the birth control, i'll probably feel inclined to bone you everyday, and then we'll never talk cause we'll just bone, and i like to talk!" so i said, "ok, well you know, there's this thing, it's called natural family planning. it's where you have sex the first two weeks after yr period but not for three weeks after that since yr ovulating/menstruating" and he said, "that sounds good, it'll keep us disciplined and won't focus the relationship on sex!!!" WELL NEEDLESS TO SAY, THAT BOLOGNA DOESNT WORK, ITS A CATHOLIC SCAM TO REPRODUCE AND I GOT PREGNANT IN AUGUST. at first we were scared, angry even. the first night, after taking the test in the wal mart bathroom (sad i know) i was like "what is so and so gonna say? and so and so?! and how am i gonna do it with school? and why why why?!?!" and actually daniel already had a premonition which is why i took the test, i honestly didnt think i was pregnant. anyway, i told aaron, his brother [R.I.P], about it first and he gave me "logical" advice, but aaron was a worldly man, his opinion wasn't valid in this spiritual world I live in. anyway, i told daniel and he was pissed, "he was like i don't want to have this baby" and he stormed out with his lil pillow and i was like, "okaaaayyy, fine, ya ass, go sleep on the futon" but then i heard the front door close so i figured he was going to star gaze or something. but he came back in a minute later and sat on the bed with his head in his hands and was making these weird pitiful noises and saying stuff like "it wasnt supposed to be like this" and "NO! no.... :( NOOO!!" hahaha. anyway, he was like, "i cant sit here like this" so he left again and went for a walk and i fell asleep cause i was like uh, get over it, big baby. then he came back about an hour later and got in bed and he started cuddling with me and kissing me and we started talking and we decided to keep the lil bebe! he said that he decided that we'd invested a lot into this relationship and killing a product of our love would be stupid and would pretty much mean we'd have to break up cause i know i wouldnt be able to stay with him after we killed our love child and he said the same and that he could never live with having me make that decision. luckily, we'd started praying together a few weeks before that so that helped. the next day we had work and it was so bizarre. Schlotzsky's was SO DEAD. we had all the time in the world to talk and figure out how we were going to do this thang. fast forward a month and a half and things are wonderful. our relationship has actually quadrupled in strength. daniel is so good to me! he prays with me, he cooks for me, he takes me places when i need a ride, including my 7:45 class even though those days he doesnt have school til 2, he feeds me ice cream in bed and is very loving and just a precious little thing!! he tells me very special things that can be summed up in the fact that we are getting married! there is no doubt in my mind that he is the guy i have been destined to be with since i came to this Earth and it is so exciting! so yes we're getting married by the judge in december or sooner so we can apply for joint financial aid and so he can be able to make emergency medical decisions if he ever needed to. but he agreed to a Catholic wedding (well he was baptized Catholic) which will happen this summer when i am not a cow and can have a brew or two or three. :) our parents took it well. especially his since his brother passed away six days after we found out the news! crazy, huh? his mom was really depressed but when we told her she called daniel the next saying she woke up feeling like she had a new purpose for living! and my parents were disappointed too considering they thought i was a virgin and they care a lot about laredo gossip and church parish gossip since they dont like people to talk bad about me. but now they are getting very excited! daniel moves in with me in december or january! yay!
and if you know nothing about daniel, he is a wonderful boy who plays soccer, is an officer in AMA, gets good grades, has good work ethic (he's been at Schlotzsky's for over a year but just got a job at Johnny Carinos and a financial services place to build his resume) and he comes from a good family and has maintained long lasting friendships(always a good sign) and he loves his mom! and i am only the 5th girl he's ever had sex with (i know a few of them, he has pretty good taste, and selective, not gonna lie), and not that bad considering all these chicks have always been hanging on his peepee!
as for the baby, it is 11 weeks old, 5 cm. and here is a picture!
the black part is where it lives and the little thing chilling at the bottom is the baby! it has a head and torso and legs! and a little nose!
i'll find out the gender in 9 weeks. and get ready for a baby shower over christmas break!
and this is mom and dad!
thats all for now folks.
School: I am a junior!! By summer I will be a Senior! And it's exciting! I am doing good in Organic Chem surprisingly, and in Medical Terminology, but apparently, Anatomy and Physiology II is harder than part 1 and I'm working on my B :( I could afford to go to class and study more though. And my Nutrition class sucks, my teacher sucks and even though I am applying to my program in May, I have a C in this freakin class. My only C, which would also be my 2nd C ever (coincidence?? no, Dr.Yang is a big WANG), happens to be in the course most specific to my major. But its going up, still, super lame. I registered for next semester and there are some discrepancies but it'll be okay...still don't understand why I have to take my Computer Science NOW since it's not written on the Prereq.'s list but whatever.
Sorority: I just love my sisters even though Josey sometimes tries to run this shit like it's a damn business! They are very supportive and pretty much my only girlfriends besides Sofia so its good. Plus I'm getting all the great community service I need to get in the Dietetics program.
Work: I was working with Daniel, my boyfriend/fiance/soulmate/best friend :), at Schlotzsky's for about two months since I needed extra cash not to mention 80 hrs. in the food industry for, you guessed it, my Dietetics program. And since they hired me on the spot, I ran with it. It was dandy since we didn't have supervision on the night shift and we got to eat, and dance, and get high all the time, not to mention getting paid to hang out with the love of my life, but then I got knocked up and the customers started to PISS ME THE FUCK OFF and the deli meat would make me want to BARF. and my grades started to suck once school started. so now i'm free, but i still got some $$. B-On Time Loan should be coming any week now though.....I hope!! I also hope I'm still gonna B On Time so i don't have to pay that shit back!!
Living Situation: My new apartment is MUCH nicer than the one I used to have, it's all cute and home-y, though smaller, but then again I did live in a two story...but this is one-story, still two bed 2-bath, and newer and not ghetto. Well, edinburg can be ghetto, my bike DID get stolen, but its not ghetto to the unaided eye. ricky WAS living with me, but my parents moved him out because he hadn't gotten a job after two months, wasn't going to school, was an occupational hanger-outer who would bring over lazy ass stoners with no regard for others who would trash and disrespect the shit out of my house, usually they would just leave it behind, i'd just come home to FILTH AND MESS! and of course i cleaned it up. everyday. after a long day of work and school which none of them can begin to comprehend. lets just say after i got pregnant i seriously began compromising my mental stability over this. i mean, crusty dishes, ink on my upholstered chairs, weed and trash all over my table disablng me to be able to study in my own home. cooking utensils charred and damaged, not to mention unwashed, overflowing garbage, missing food (even though I was the only one throwing down for groceries), dirty people in my bed, stale smoke and dirty bong water smell in my beautiful apt, and dont forget how demmie broke the toilet and then left the shit water for my father to flush out. and dont forget how they disregarded telling me that they had fixed the leak with fucking electrical tape instead of turning the water off with the toilet knob like a competent person so that i WOULDNT have to come home after a 12 hr school day (yes Tues/Thurs. my first class is at 7:45 and my last class ends at 7, not to mention that day I had gone to Daniel's to watch the litle mermaid and eat dinner so by the time i got home it was 11 p.m.) to a FLOODED ASS HOUSE. i was literally flushing out toilet water from my living room with a dustpan!! it leaked through the walls from the bathroom to the living room, in the opposite direction to the baby's room (ricky's old room) and started to go into my room when I arrived home. it took 4 glorious hours to clean up (by myself since ricky and friends were nowhere to be found) and my house smells musty and i can already see the mold growing in my head. i happen to be allergic to mold and may have to move to a new apartment. let's not mention the fact that ricky removed my laptop from my house without my permission (having got his stolen in austin this summer) and left it at some apt., the NEIGHBORS of a friend, whom he did not know well, and some GHOST, stole my laptop. it might've helped if he had filed a police report so i could get a new one, but after bugging him for two weeks, he still hadn't...so i just did it myself. I love Ricky. I really do. but life has been SO ridiculously easier since he has moved out. i just wish he'd go back to my parents house instead of squatting with friends.
ok, these angry feelings aren't good for the baby. next topic. i got run into the wall on the expressway by an 18 wheeler and don't have a car.
next topic. i just love daniel bazan!! my last entry read : i am in the most intriguing, spectacular little romance with my chem lab 1 crush, daniel. he's put quite a little twist on whatever it is that we have, i'm not quite sure what it is. all i know is that i haven't felt this way in years and he's never felt this way ever so uhhh I LOVE HIM! and he is so disciplined in the sheets! he encourages my abstinence even whenever i momentarily turn into a freak-a-leek! and we've already spent about 20 nights together!! wheewheewhee! he's been trying to fight the moonlight, never having had a girlfriend and all, but he's already spent four nights with me this week as opposed to the usual once a week, sometimes once every other week since january or february, so i think its safe to say it's getting harder for him to spend time away from me, but he values his independence and his friends are arriving for summertime so i know we'll start seperating ourselves more at least til we both start school in july but i am just so excited to see where this goes! i have been playing my cards very tediously and i seem to be doing everything right! Gracias a Dios, this one's going down in the books..in fact, it already has. wish me luck!
well since then things have kind of just set off into the abyss. well as for that abstinence thing, we started having sex in july cause well, i'll be honest, it was all me, i'm not gonna lie. geez! but he liked it, in fact, i was the first girl to ever make him "ejaculate" and vice versa!! it's just GRAND! except sometimes i get tired and i just wish he'd finish :( ANYWAY, when we started having sex i said, "do you want me to get on birth control?" i should mention that we don't use condoms cause they suck, kill intimacy, and hello, i'd be getting boned forever if we desensitized him. so he says, "well lets think about this, if you get on the birth control, i'll probably feel inclined to bone you everyday, and then we'll never talk cause we'll just bone, and i like to talk!" so i said, "ok, well you know, there's this thing, it's called natural family planning. it's where you have sex the first two weeks after yr period but not for three weeks after that since yr ovulating/menstruating" and he said, "that sounds good, it'll keep us disciplined and won't focus the relationship on sex!!!" WELL NEEDLESS TO SAY, THAT BOLOGNA DOESNT WORK, ITS A CATHOLIC SCAM TO REPRODUCE AND I GOT PREGNANT IN AUGUST. at first we were scared, angry even. the first night, after taking the test in the wal mart bathroom (sad i know) i was like "what is so and so gonna say? and so and so?! and how am i gonna do it with school? and why why why?!?!" and actually daniel already had a premonition which is why i took the test, i honestly didnt think i was pregnant. anyway, i told aaron, his brother [R.I.P], about it first and he gave me "logical" advice, but aaron was a worldly man, his opinion wasn't valid in this spiritual world I live in. anyway, i told daniel and he was pissed, "he was like i don't want to have this baby" and he stormed out with his lil pillow and i was like, "okaaaayyy, fine, ya ass, go sleep on the futon" but then i heard the front door close so i figured he was going to star gaze or something. but he came back in a minute later and sat on the bed with his head in his hands and was making these weird pitiful noises and saying stuff like "it wasnt supposed to be like this" and "NO! no.... :( NOOO!!" hahaha. anyway, he was like, "i cant sit here like this" so he left again and went for a walk and i fell asleep cause i was like uh, get over it, big baby. then he came back about an hour later and got in bed and he started cuddling with me and kissing me and we started talking and we decided to keep the lil bebe! he said that he decided that we'd invested a lot into this relationship and killing a product of our love would be stupid and would pretty much mean we'd have to break up cause i know i wouldnt be able to stay with him after we killed our love child and he said the same and that he could never live with having me make that decision. luckily, we'd started praying together a few weeks before that so that helped. the next day we had work and it was so bizarre. Schlotzsky's was SO DEAD. we had all the time in the world to talk and figure out how we were going to do this thang. fast forward a month and a half and things are wonderful. our relationship has actually quadrupled in strength. daniel is so good to me! he prays with me, he cooks for me, he takes me places when i need a ride, including my 7:45 class even though those days he doesnt have school til 2, he feeds me ice cream in bed and is very loving and just a precious little thing!! he tells me very special things that can be summed up in the fact that we are getting married! there is no doubt in my mind that he is the guy i have been destined to be with since i came to this Earth and it is so exciting! so yes we're getting married by the judge in december or sooner so we can apply for joint financial aid and so he can be able to make emergency medical decisions if he ever needed to. but he agreed to a Catholic wedding (well he was baptized Catholic) which will happen this summer when i am not a cow and can have a brew or two or three. :) our parents took it well. especially his since his brother passed away six days after we found out the news! crazy, huh? his mom was really depressed but when we told her she called daniel the next saying she woke up feeling like she had a new purpose for living! and my parents were disappointed too considering they thought i was a virgin and they care a lot about laredo gossip and church parish gossip since they dont like people to talk bad about me. but now they are getting very excited! daniel moves in with me in december or january! yay!
and if you know nothing about daniel, he is a wonderful boy who plays soccer, is an officer in AMA, gets good grades, has good work ethic (he's been at Schlotzsky's for over a year but just got a job at Johnny Carinos and a financial services place to build his resume) and he comes from a good family and has maintained long lasting friendships(always a good sign) and he loves his mom! and i am only the 5th girl he's ever had sex with (i know a few of them, he has pretty good taste, and selective, not gonna lie), and not that bad considering all these chicks have always been hanging on his peepee!
as for the baby, it is 11 weeks old, 5 cm. and here is a picture!
the black part is where it lives and the little thing chilling at the bottom is the baby! it has a head and torso and legs! and a little nose!
i'll find out the gender in 9 weeks. and get ready for a baby shower over christmas break!
and this is mom and dad!
thats all for now folks.