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for the record.
i hate the fact that i cut myself. i hate the fact that i burn myself. i hate the fact. i hate the fact that my family had to find out the way they did, not-too-long-ago. i don't enjoy having a scarred body. i don't enjoy being self conscious. do you think we do this for the attention? if that was the case - why do we hide it? do you think it's juvenile? do you think it's immature?
were you once a self injurer, and now that you no longer injure do you hold your chin high & think you're stronger then we are because you got better? do you think we're criminally insane? do you think we give a fuck?
the part i need people to understand is that i am in another world when i do it. it's what snaps me back into reality. if you've never experienced "it" then you don't know "it." being so depressed, so angry, so confused that you feel absolutely nothing - the consequences of that could be worse then what they are at this standpoint. i gravitate towards the blade when i know that nothing good can come out of what i'm feeling (or not feeling.)
so for the record.
a. i don't do this for you.
b. i don't care what you think of it.
c. i don't enjoy it.
d. it IS an addiction.
e. fuck you for judging me.
you know who you are.
hi. my name is sheri, i'm seventeen years old, a rape survivor, and i self injure.
i hate the fact that i cut myself. i hate the fact that i burn myself. i hate the fact. i hate the fact that my family had to find out the way they did, not-too-long-ago. i don't enjoy having a scarred body. i don't enjoy being self conscious. do you think we do this for the attention? if that was the case - why do we hide it? do you think it's juvenile? do you think it's immature?
were you once a self injurer, and now that you no longer injure do you hold your chin high & think you're stronger then we are because you got better? do you think we're criminally insane? do you think we give a fuck?
the part i need people to understand is that i am in another world when i do it. it's what snaps me back into reality. if you've never experienced "it" then you don't know "it." being so depressed, so angry, so confused that you feel absolutely nothing - the consequences of that could be worse then what they are at this standpoint. i gravitate towards the blade when i know that nothing good can come out of what i'm feeling (or not feeling.)
so for the record.
a. i don't do this for you.
b. i don't care what you think of it.
c. i don't enjoy it.
d. it IS an addiction.
e. fuck you for judging me.
you know who you are.
hi. my name is sheri, i'm seventeen years old, a rape survivor, and i self injure.