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Does it normally take 6ish months for you to realize the impact of moving across the country, away from every thing, person, and place you've ever known? I wonder what I'd be doing if I had stayed in California. I don't regret my decision. I actually think of it as courageous and romantic. I feel like a heavy stone ball. I am pushing and pushing to move forward but I just feel weighed down. I know that once I start rolling, it will be easier to keep going.
Sometimes I roll too fast.
It's hard to be the person you want to be when you aren't that person.
I don't know how people do it. Move around, establish a life, maintain a sense of self. I didn't anticipate having to reinvent myself again. I didn't stop to think as much as I would have liked. Although, if I had, I might not have come. I probably would have reasoned my way out of it.
I was so sure of who I was... I always am until I'm not. Aren't we all.
Aren't we?
Sometimes I roll too fast.
It's hard to be the person you want to be when you aren't that person.
I don't know how people do it. Move around, establish a life, maintain a sense of self. I didn't anticipate having to reinvent myself again. I didn't stop to think as much as I would have liked. Although, if I had, I might not have come. I probably would have reasoned my way out of it.
I was so sure of who I was... I always am until I'm not. Aren't we all.
Aren't we?